... You have to set yourself on fire.
Says the lyrics to one of my favorite songs, Your Ex Lover is Dead.
How appropriate during these times.
No, I am not lamenting over a broken heart. I am way past that. Five months have passed and I could say that I am healed.
There's no grief. There is just...
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It's as if I've extinguished all the fire that kept me alive... that I've touched the flame that I have always tried to avoid. And now, there's nothingness.
Like I'm stuck inside a room with four solid walls, without any doors, without any windows.
Dead End.
Dear life, Help me burn again.. before I set myself on fire.
CHANGING MY WORLD, ONE MISTAKE AT A TIME.
Tuesday, November 01, 2016
Saturday, September 26, 2015
When Everything is Grand... Like Grad.
Hello guys!
I can't believe it's been so long since I last posted on this blog. I almost got locked out too. Sorry my dear fans, all 3 of you, for not updating this sooner.
My life has been pretty steady. I left my previous job last year to join a very techie company. More than a year into this, my nose is still not bleeding, indicating that everything is perfect. My boss is amazing, my friends are so fun, and everyday is an opportunity to learn.
I am also very happily committed to my significant other. He just recently visited me last month and celebrated my 31st birthday with me. For him to come halfway across the world to see me is proof enough that we're dead serious in making this work. We're very much in love, and preparing for our future together.
Edit:
I can't believe it's been so long since I last posted on this blog. I almost got locked out too. Sorry my dear fans, all 3 of you, for not updating this sooner.
My life has been pretty steady. I left my previous job last year to join a very techie company. More than a year into this, my nose is still not bleeding, indicating that everything is perfect. My boss is amazing, my friends are so fun, and everyday is an opportunity to learn.
I am also very happily committed to my significant other. He just recently visited me last month and celebrated my 31st birthday with me. For him to come halfway across the world to see me is proof enough that we're dead serious in making this work. We're very much in love, and preparing for our future together.
Edit:
I started writing this last September and only got around finishing it this March. Haha. Anyway, everything is still peachy in all aspects so, calm down.
Anyway, what i was about to post before i was rudely interrupted by my laziness, I am finally adding something to my name. No, its not Mrs. Nor is it my significant other's last name. I am finally annamitzie (my surname), MBA.
Yaaaaas, bitches. I am done with school. And even though I missed getting a medal by .08, I want to believe that I finished strong. Thank you God, thank you PyongYang, thank you Flamethrower and everyone who supported me in my journey. It was fun, stressful, depression-inducing, but all worth it.
Next target, MuA.
Saturday, January 17, 2015
The Honolulu Hullabaloo
This post is ages late but for the sake of documenting my travel, I am taking time out of my very busy schedule to write about my super awesome 10-day vacay in the land of rainbows and pineapple-- Hawaii.
Last October 2013, I went to to Hawaii to attend my future sister-in-law's wedding. I ultimately broke the trend of NOT repeating vacation destinations-- but what the hell, anything for my beloved Loulen.
Who am I kidding? it was awesome :-D 2013's Hawaii visit was 99% work, 1% pleasure so it was quite an experience to finally see what the hullabaloo is about this so-called Paradise.
Despite the super stressful day when I had to work, shower at our office building's shower area, get caught in massive traffic, and hustle from Guam to Honolulu, it was all worth it to finally see my love after 9 months of just Skype dates.
He picked me up in his mom's BMW (because his beloved Boxster can't accommodate my luggage LoL) and he had his boyish smile upon seeing me.. And i know he teared a bit.
Last October 2013, I went to to Hawaii to attend my future sister-in-law's wedding. I ultimately broke the trend of NOT repeating vacation destinations-- but what the hell, anything for my beloved Loulen.
Who am I kidding? it was awesome :-D 2013's Hawaii visit was 99% work, 1% pleasure so it was quite an experience to finally see what the hullabaloo is about this so-called Paradise.
Despite the super stressful day when I had to work, shower at our office building's shower area, get caught in massive traffic, and hustle from Guam to Honolulu, it was all worth it to finally see my love after 9 months of just Skype dates.
He picked me up in his mom's BMW (because his beloved Boxster can't accommodate my luggage LoL) and he had his boyish smile upon seeing me.. And i know he teared a bit.
*edit*
I am finishing this post a year and a half after my actual hawaii travel. Hahaha! Anyway, what I wanted to say was that i had an awesome time with my Boyfie. We went hiking, swimming, shopping and i also watched him get his groove on at work. I love seeing him in his element, you know, Surrounded by alcohol and opening beer bottles like nobody's business. I am a proud girlfriend of a restaurant owner/ bar tender.
Friday, January 24, 2014
No More Lo(ule)nly Nights
Find someone who loves you for who you are, who accepts your flaws, respects your independence, enjoys the company of your family and friends and makes you a better individual.
I'm a glad I found him.
Bonus na lang na he drives a Porsche and lives in a three- bedroom penthouse in the posh side of the city.
Long Distance Relationship has never been this smooth sailing when you have someone who is as committed as he is. So lucky to find my Hawaiian Prince. See you soon, my love.
Monday, June 03, 2013
Oh, The Irony.
Death is a life changer. And moving on means accepting that things will never be the same again.
I miss you, pops. There is never a day that I don't think of you. My heart breaks into a million pieces with every thought and with every memory of you.
As selfish as it may seem, I need to move away. I need to keep myself busy so I wont miss you as terribly as I miss you right now.
Oh, Hawaii. Please be good to me.
I miss you, pops. There is never a day that I don't think of you. My heart breaks into a million pieces with every thought and with every memory of you.
As selfish as it may seem, I need to move away. I need to keep myself busy so I wont miss you as terribly as I miss you right now.
Oh, Hawaii. Please be good to me.
Sunday, April 07, 2013
Crossing the Threshold
After 8 years of blissful, semi-tragic and bittersweet stay in the Company, I have finally decided to leave my comfort zone and cross the threshold. Yes, I never thought it was possible but I have finally resigned in my company which has been my second home since forever. When you think about it, if my company and I decided to have a child together, he/ she would have been in second grade. That long.
And yet, i stepped into this new world with breathtaking abandon and youthful exuberance like its my first time. To say that this new job is a life changer would be an understatement. It is both scary and exciting that it feels like I am always on the edge of a cliff, ready to dive.
For starters, I had to finish my driving lessons. I know its 2 years late, but I had to rush my lessons because I will soon be driving not in the traffic ridden manila but in badass streets of New York and open spaced Hawaii. its not really the targets that is scary me to death but my not-so-stellar driving skills.
Second, I am starting to get accustomed to talking to strangers. I know I'm great in sales but its always them who come to me, instead of me initiating the conversation. But this time, i had to remove my suplada vibes and put on my charm 24/7. Admittedly, it was hard for me at first but when I got the hang of things, it was kind of fun knowing that you can earn people's trust with the time of acquaintanceship never being an issue.
Finally, this job would require me to truly be independent--- fend for myself and live without my parents and family's support. I know I felt like i was 'independent' but living with my parents has accorded me with benefits like having household help that would take care of the laundry and dinner when i get home. My dad would be there to drive me places even though I could just get there by myself. This time, na-da. I have to do all that on my own, apart from making my own schedules day by day for the next two months.
I dont know how this job will fan out but so far, I am loving the busy-ness and novelty that it brings. Whatever happens, I would never forget to thank God for blessing me with the gift of new challenges.
And as Laida Magtalas would say, this is me, Version 2.0., Stronger, fiercer, better.
And yet, i stepped into this new world with breathtaking abandon and youthful exuberance like its my first time. To say that this new job is a life changer would be an understatement. It is both scary and exciting that it feels like I am always on the edge of a cliff, ready to dive.
For starters, I had to finish my driving lessons. I know its 2 years late, but I had to rush my lessons because I will soon be driving not in the traffic ridden manila but in badass streets of New York and open spaced Hawaii. its not really the targets that is scary me to death but my not-so-stellar driving skills.
Second, I am starting to get accustomed to talking to strangers. I know I'm great in sales but its always them who come to me, instead of me initiating the conversation. But this time, i had to remove my suplada vibes and put on my charm 24/7. Admittedly, it was hard for me at first but when I got the hang of things, it was kind of fun knowing that you can earn people's trust with the time of acquaintanceship never being an issue.
Finally, this job would require me to truly be independent--- fend for myself and live without my parents and family's support. I know I felt like i was 'independent' but living with my parents has accorded me with benefits like having household help that would take care of the laundry and dinner when i get home. My dad would be there to drive me places even though I could just get there by myself. This time, na-da. I have to do all that on my own, apart from making my own schedules day by day for the next two months.
I dont know how this job will fan out but so far, I am loving the busy-ness and novelty that it brings. Whatever happens, I would never forget to thank God for blessing me with the gift of new challenges.
And as Laida Magtalas would say, this is me, Version 2.0., Stronger, fiercer, better.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Crazeeee Aquino!
So, this is what two days of voice rest, i.e. no talking, did to me. And no thanks to the steroids i've been taking, my face is as bloated as uhm, a belly full of beer.
Ursula, give me back my frickin' voice! I need it ASAP!
Stubborn, Stubborn Love
VERSE 1She‘ll lie and steal and cheat, and beg you from her knees.Make you thinks she means it this timeShe‘ll tear a hole in you, the one you can‘t repairBut I still love her, I don‘t really careBRIDGEWhen we were young, Oh Oh, we did enoughWhen it got cold, Ooh Ooh, we bundled upI cant be told, Ah Ah It cant be doneVERSE 2It‘s better to feel pain, than nothing at allThe opposite of love‘s indifferenceSo pay attention now, I‘m standing on your porch screaming outAnd I wont leave until you come downstairsCHORUSSo keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my loveKeep your head up, keep your loveKeep your head up, keep your loveVERSEAnd I don't blame ya dear for running like you did, all these years.I would do the same, you best believeAnd the highway signs say we‘re closed, but I don't read those things anymoreI never trusted my own eyes
BRIDGEWhen we were young oh oh, we did enoughWhen it got cold, Ooh ooh we bundled up.I can‘t be told, Ah ah, it can‘t be done.CHORUSSo keep your head up, keep your loveKeep your head up, my love x2Keep your head up, keep your loveHead up, love x4
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/stubborn-love-lyrics-the-lumineers.html ]
Keep your head up, my loveKeep your head up, keep your loveKeep your head up, keep your loveVERSEAnd I don't blame ya dear for running like you did, all these years.I would do the same, you best believeAnd the highway signs say we‘re closed, but I don't read those things anymoreI never trusted my own eyes
BRIDGEWhen we were young oh oh, we did enoughWhen it got cold, Ooh ooh we bundled up.I can‘t be told, Ah ah, it can‘t be done.CHORUSSo keep your head up, keep your loveKeep your head up, my love x2Keep your head up, keep your loveHead up, love x4
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/stubborn-love-lyrics-the-lumineers.html ]
