It would have been the perfect first date-- casual, spontaneous, with sexy bossa nova music assailing our senses as we rendezvous at the small cafe of that quaint music shop, speed reading the back labels of our favorite CDs.
I was standing in the middle of the Pop Rock aisle, between Jason Mraz and Switchfoot, pretending nonchalance but secretly wishing I'd bump into that one person that I was supposed to be with in the first place. NO, there was no agreement that we'd go together its just that...
... he asked it during lunch time what time was Sitti going to play. I remembered that it was today, and stupid me, i forgot to bring my CD which i intended to give him. I asked if he's gonna watch and he said he'll drop by. I said ever so casually that I'm going too.
Maybe he agreed or maybe i just willed my mind to believe that he agreed because that's what I wanted... for him to grant me the chance to prove that I could be a good friend, at the very least.
The rest of the afternoon, i was extraordinarily perky despite my initial discomfort when i realized that the black lacey top with skintone underdress made me look like I was wearing nothing inside. ( after getting a second look from my officemates, I half expected that a crowd would gather in front of me and stare at my blouse/ chest to decipher whether I was wearing a bra or not--- Like a bunch of people intently decoding the secret image in the 3-D painting) Okay, I digressed... again.
I couldnt wait till the time comes that i'll be out of the office. I dreamt of stomping on the virtual time clock so the fingers would point to 5 pm. And when the time did come, I looked at his area only to find him gone.
Okay, so much for the power of positive thinking. He left as usual... without saying goodbye... stamping a billboard-sized NOT INTERESTED note on my forehead. There goes my "never say die" alterego, out the window where it belongs.
I wanted to hate him... but i know that he's not being crass... just annoyingly naive and unknowing. I cant hate someone like that... especially not him.
After the unwanted high that i achieved last Thurday, I am now imprisoned by melancholic thoughts that I could never make him see what kind of life he's missing.
I know this is the time for me to mind my own life and stop my herculean dream to teach him how great it is to be fall in love and be loved.
I cant think of a happy way of ending this post... so let me just write the lyrics of my current soundtrack...
Hopeless Love
Daphne Loves Derby
Hopeless love please leave me
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long
Why don't you care at all?
I'm dying for a place in your heart
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again
I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight
And now I regret the day we met
And help me forget your name.
*** No More ***
CHANGING MY WORLD, ONE MISTAKE AT A TIME.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Friday, May 26, 2006
He's my Peter Pan
Yes, I've been MIA for the past couple of weeks. Its not really the stress but the lack of time to blog that's causing me this huge gaping wall of blankness.
I cant discuss lengthily my life for the past 2 weeks that i have been gone because its 12:30 am and I still have to go to work tomorrow ,er, later.
I'll just make this brief, then.
I am one helluva confused woman.
And MTB, yes, still MTB, is causing such a chaos. Actually,he didnt do anything to make me think, get me confused, or do anything in general.
I happened to get brainwashed by his oh-so charismatic friends on our way home from my friend's going away party. I know that they are just jesting because where in the world could they actually get all those ideas that of all the girls who had a crush on him, it was only I, who caught his attention. IMPOSSIBLE. walang ganun.
Pero kahit na barbs lahat ng kwento nila sa akin, I cant help but feel all the emotions that I forcefully bury in the infinite abyss of self-denial and uncertainty.
Thoughts of him make me fly... and fall at the same time.
I cant discuss lengthily my life for the past 2 weeks that i have been gone because its 12:30 am and I still have to go to work tomorrow ,er, later.
I'll just make this brief, then.
I am one helluva confused woman.
And MTB, yes, still MTB, is causing such a chaos. Actually,he didnt do anything to make me think, get me confused, or do anything in general.
I happened to get brainwashed by his oh-so charismatic friends on our way home from my friend's going away party. I know that they are just jesting because where in the world could they actually get all those ideas that of all the girls who had a crush on him, it was only I, who caught his attention. IMPOSSIBLE. walang ganun.
Pero kahit na barbs lahat ng kwento nila sa akin, I cant help but feel all the emotions that I forcefully bury in the infinite abyss of self-denial and uncertainty.
Thoughts of him make me fly... and fall at the same time.
Saturday, May 13, 2006
REUNITED (and It Feels So Good)
Just got home from Tubby's not-so-surprise birthday party. yebah. We are officially back in each other's arms (yuck, feeling lovers eh)after a 3- month hiatus. It's great, we talked, laughed, criticized each other like nothing happened. Its the truest kind of friendship.
I'm tired as usual, not from work (thank God) but from laughing maniacally at every jokes my friends made. I Can say that my sense of humor is at its best when I'm with them.
Super thanks to DIshwalla (the other celebrant), Scarlet (who came all the way from Ortigas---parang ang layo noh?), and Susy and Geno. Of course, PERKS SQUAD is complete after uhm, One year? oh shoot. Wala kaming Group Pic! Bad trip.
Anyway, it was super fun. Suka level kami kakain at nagkandapaso- paso ang dila ko sa paginom ng pagkainit init na tsaa ng Starbucks. And what is a Perksquad and friends gimmick without the usual comic/ surreal episodes?
1.) Nauna si Tubby na dumating kesa sa kanila
2.) Magkakaroon kami ng Bituing Walang Ningning Acting contest sa Greenbelt 3.
3.) Nabanlian ni Mamba si Queer ng Umuusok na french press
4.) Ilalagay ko ang napakandang Ann Taylor dress na binili sa isang gutay- gutay na paperbag
5.) Pagbibitbitin namin si Tubby ng isang box ng cake habang naggagalivanting kami sa GB (sosyal na sosyal)
Ayun... next time na ang kwento... OT pa ako tomorrow.
I'm tired as usual, not from work (thank God) but from laughing maniacally at every jokes my friends made. I Can say that my sense of humor is at its best when I'm with them.
Super thanks to DIshwalla (the other celebrant), Scarlet (who came all the way from Ortigas---parang ang layo noh?), and Susy and Geno. Of course, PERKS SQUAD is complete after uhm, One year? oh shoot. Wala kaming Group Pic! Bad trip.
Anyway, it was super fun. Suka level kami kakain at nagkandapaso- paso ang dila ko sa paginom ng pagkainit init na tsaa ng Starbucks. And what is a Perksquad and friends gimmick without the usual comic/ surreal episodes?
1.) Nauna si Tubby na dumating kesa sa kanila
2.) Magkakaroon kami ng Bituing Walang Ningning Acting contest sa Greenbelt 3.
3.) Nabanlian ni Mamba si Queer ng Umuusok na french press
4.) Ilalagay ko ang napakandang Ann Taylor dress na binili sa isang gutay- gutay na paperbag
5.) Pagbibitbitin namin si Tubby ng isang box ng cake habang naggagalivanting kami sa GB (sosyal na sosyal)
Ayun... next time na ang kwento... OT pa ako tomorrow.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
My Birthdayless Cake
Di ko naman birthday, pero may cake ako.
Huwaaaaa... this is it.
This is wrong on so many levels.
1. Di ko siya type... Im sorry
2. Birthday cake nya ito galing sa office... hindi naman nya binili. In short, charity ito.
3. May girlfriend/ live in partner sha (not that I'm even considering it)
4. Di ko siya type... need I say more???
Pero sige, since iniwan nya sa table ko nung umuwi na ako (sinalisihan nya ako!) at wala ako dun to do anything about it, Payn. Ika nga ni Viveka Babajee, TAKE IT, TAKE IT! Ngunit ang katotohanan nyan, kung nandun ako, nungcang (hanep sa word...) tanggapin ko yun... ako pa?!? Notorious kaya ako sa pagsosoli ng mga gifts. Haloooooo.. Pero ayun, wala na akong nagawa.. kaya, sige sige.. gusto ng mga friends, eh di ibigay ang hilig. Tutal, hindi nya pera ang pinambili nya sa fondant cake na iyon. In order not to look ungrateful/ mean, keri. Hindi na ako gumawa ng eksena at dinala ang cake habang nagdidialogue ng "Anong akala mo sa akin?!? mukhang pera? Hindi ko kelangan ng mga materyal na bagay! Hindi ako nabibili! How...Dare...You! My brother is not a Pig!"
Pero shempre, alangan namang tanggapin ko yun ng ganun ganun lang. Baka mamya, makatunog si Kung Kupa na regalo lang pala ang katapat ko at bigyan ako ng isang truck ng office supplies. Anover?!? Kaya unang una pa lang, sinopla ko na si Mario Brother na ahem, THanks but no thanks. nawa'y hindi na nya ulitin ang kanyang "DOM" act, kundi, magpapatiwakal na talaga ako (shempre hindi ko sinabi yun). Hindi ako paasa. period.
In fairness to the cake, maganda sha.
Ika nga ni Li'l Ms. Foxy, lamang tiyan rin yan.
Huwaaaaa... this is it.
This is wrong on so many levels.
1. Di ko siya type... Im sorry
2. Birthday cake nya ito galing sa office... hindi naman nya binili. In short, charity ito.
3. May girlfriend/ live in partner sha (not that I'm even considering it)
4. Di ko siya type... need I say more???
Pero sige, since iniwan nya sa table ko nung umuwi na ako (sinalisihan nya ako!) at wala ako dun to do anything about it, Payn. Ika nga ni Viveka Babajee, TAKE IT, TAKE IT! Ngunit ang katotohanan nyan, kung nandun ako, nungcang (hanep sa word...) tanggapin ko yun... ako pa?!? Notorious kaya ako sa pagsosoli ng mga gifts. Haloooooo.. Pero ayun, wala na akong nagawa.. kaya, sige sige.. gusto ng mga friends, eh di ibigay ang hilig. Tutal, hindi nya pera ang pinambili nya sa fondant cake na iyon. In order not to look ungrateful/ mean, keri. Hindi na ako gumawa ng eksena at dinala ang cake habang nagdidialogue ng "Anong akala mo sa akin?!? mukhang pera? Hindi ko kelangan ng mga materyal na bagay! Hindi ako nabibili! How...Dare...You! My brother is not a Pig!"
Pero shempre, alangan namang tanggapin ko yun ng ganun ganun lang. Baka mamya, makatunog si Kung Kupa na regalo lang pala ang katapat ko at bigyan ako ng isang truck ng office supplies. Anover?!? Kaya unang una pa lang, sinopla ko na si Mario Brother na ahem, THanks but no thanks. nawa'y hindi na nya ulitin ang kanyang "DOM" act, kundi, magpapatiwakal na talaga ako (shempre hindi ko sinabi yun). Hindi ako paasa. period.
In fairness to the cake, maganda sha.
Ika nga ni Li'l Ms. Foxy, lamang tiyan rin yan.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
My Guy Pattern
It finally dawned on me exactly what type of guy I'm likely to attract.
Based on the roster of my past and my current admirers, I noticed that they have one thing in common----- they are all, in one way or another, attached during the time they "fell" for me.
let me expound:
Case #1: My puppy Love, Ripples
Ripples was my pseudo-bestfriend in Freshman highschool. He was this uber gorgeous Fil-Am guy who had a brief showbiz career (as in brief, mga 5 episodes sa TGIS) and was one year my senior. He was my schoolbusmate and guess what brought us closer together during that time? His girlfriend was my childhood bestfriend, 2die4 who was also my former neighbor.
Konting kwentong kilig: There was one time that we fought over the simplest thing- about me sleeping with my mouth open. It wasnt actually true, mainly because during that time, I could never sleep inside a moving vehicle, plus the fact that our ride home was only around 20 minutes. He was only teasing me in front of my classmates and being the drama queen that i am, i made a big deal out of it. I didnt talk to him for three days. Ang loko, hindi ako natiis. On day four, right after playing patintero during our vacant period (how juvenile ano?), he came to our class with a bouquet of red roses, with a card of apology. It was so sweet, i swear, especially the with a poen he wrote about missing me a lot. He also wrote the entire border of the card with mahal kita (or was it i love you?). Kainis dahil sa aking kaburaraan, nawala ko yung card...
Ayuuuun, sharing lang.
Anyway, we didnt go beyond the confines of friendship mainly because i was too young and it was wrong... hello? my bestfriend, his girlfriend??? Kaya wala... puppy love lang siya talaga. harmless, innocent and sweet.
Case #2: My Greatest heartbreak (to date), thoushallnotbenamed
When I first met thoushallnotbenamed, I never thought that I would fall for him. He wasnt my type of guy. I like guys who are masculine and macho (papa). He, on the otherhand, was on the more shy and effeminate side. I guess that was the reason I felt like I could be great friends with him. Once again, the pattern was there. the "bestfriend turned lover" plot and a girlfriend on the side. The only difference is that I didnt know the girlfriend personally (Must be the reason I snagged the guy easily, joke :-)) Since I didnt have the heart to hurt the girl, I waited for things to fall in their right place before I entered the scene completely. Bottomline, he had a girlfriend.
Case #3: My object of disgust, King Kupa
A guy old enough to be my lolo is sending me emails professing his "pure" love. Take note that this guy is already married and with kids. The horror.
Case #4: My nothing, Mario Brother
A guy not too old, but still old for my age, is vocal about having a crush on me. He grabs my friendster photos (di kami friends), knows all my personal details--- address, bday, height and even my weight (he's from the HR) and today, gives me his birthday cake. Initially, since he is my nothing (as in wala akong care sa kanya, di ako affected) I didnt know his civil status whatsoever. Fine, so i thought he was single... at least, it made me feel better knowing that not all DOM-ish guys (na pamilyado) are my "market". But noooooo, i heard it through the grapevine that Mario brother is living with his girlfriend. I'm not saying that I'm morally upright to condone such a thing, pero I'm personally not comfortable with that kind of arrangement. I am not judging people who are living together pero I can say that I wouldnt want to be in that kind of relationship.
Yuck, do not read anything from my reaction above... I am not in anyway affected by King Kupa's or Mario brother's civil status. I guess the only thing that affects me is how shamelessly they pursue other women knowing that they have one to call their own. Its so sick that it makes me a man-hater.
... and thoughts of MTB come crashing in...
Ay hindi na pala ako man-hater :)
*** timambay kaya ako sa kongreso, yayaman kaya ako sa mga indecent proposals?
Based on the roster of my past and my current admirers, I noticed that they have one thing in common----- they are all, in one way or another, attached during the time they "fell" for me.
let me expound:
Case #1: My puppy Love, Ripples
Ripples was my pseudo-bestfriend in Freshman highschool. He was this uber gorgeous Fil-Am guy who had a brief showbiz career (as in brief, mga 5 episodes sa TGIS) and was one year my senior. He was my schoolbusmate and guess what brought us closer together during that time? His girlfriend was my childhood bestfriend, 2die4 who was also my former neighbor.
Konting kwentong kilig: There was one time that we fought over the simplest thing- about me sleeping with my mouth open. It wasnt actually true, mainly because during that time, I could never sleep inside a moving vehicle, plus the fact that our ride home was only around 20 minutes. He was only teasing me in front of my classmates and being the drama queen that i am, i made a big deal out of it. I didnt talk to him for three days. Ang loko, hindi ako natiis. On day four, right after playing patintero during our vacant period (how juvenile ano?), he came to our class with a bouquet of red roses, with a card of apology. It was so sweet, i swear, especially the with a poen he wrote about missing me a lot. He also wrote the entire border of the card with mahal kita (or was it i love you?). Kainis dahil sa aking kaburaraan, nawala ko yung card...
Ayuuuun, sharing lang.
Anyway, we didnt go beyond the confines of friendship mainly because i was too young and it was wrong... hello? my bestfriend, his girlfriend??? Kaya wala... puppy love lang siya talaga. harmless, innocent and sweet.
Case #2: My Greatest heartbreak (to date), thoushallnotbenamed
When I first met thoushallnotbenamed, I never thought that I would fall for him. He wasnt my type of guy. I like guys who are masculine and macho (papa). He, on the otherhand, was on the more shy and effeminate side. I guess that was the reason I felt like I could be great friends with him. Once again, the pattern was there. the "bestfriend turned lover" plot and a girlfriend on the side. The only difference is that I didnt know the girlfriend personally (Must be the reason I snagged the guy easily, joke :-)) Since I didnt have the heart to hurt the girl, I waited for things to fall in their right place before I entered the scene completely. Bottomline, he had a girlfriend.
Case #3: My object of disgust, King Kupa
A guy old enough to be my lolo is sending me emails professing his "pure" love. Take note that this guy is already married and with kids. The horror.
Case #4: My nothing, Mario Brother
A guy not too old, but still old for my age, is vocal about having a crush on me. He grabs my friendster photos (di kami friends), knows all my personal details--- address, bday, height and even my weight (he's from the HR) and today, gives me his birthday cake. Initially, since he is my nothing (as in wala akong care sa kanya, di ako affected) I didnt know his civil status whatsoever. Fine, so i thought he was single... at least, it made me feel better knowing that not all DOM-ish guys (na pamilyado) are my "market". But noooooo, i heard it through the grapevine that Mario brother is living with his girlfriend. I'm not saying that I'm morally upright to condone such a thing, pero I'm personally not comfortable with that kind of arrangement. I am not judging people who are living together pero I can say that I wouldnt want to be in that kind of relationship.
Yuck, do not read anything from my reaction above... I am not in anyway affected by King Kupa's or Mario brother's civil status. I guess the only thing that affects me is how shamelessly they pursue other women knowing that they have one to call their own. Its so sick that it makes me a man-hater.
... and thoughts of MTB come crashing in...
Ay hindi na pala ako man-hater :)
*** timambay kaya ako sa kongreso, yayaman kaya ako sa mga indecent proposals?
Monday, May 08, 2006
Tickle me Kink
SONG OF THE MOMENT: I TOUCH MYSELF
I happened to chance upon this little boutique in Makati. Its worth checking out.
BETTER than BARE
I saw some really nice lingerie and that uber naughty maid's costume... Oh, me likey.
At one side, there's the cute underwears (ridiculously priced at around 650- 2000 bucks)... kunsabagay, its an investment. :)
There's also that accessories side (necklaces, rings, body designs)
the costume side (dominatrix, the milkmaid costume, the safari lingerie, the Sexy courtesan from the Moulin Rouge etc)
and on the other side, whoohoo, sex toys galore. The Strip Poker set costs around P1500 and the sex toys range from 650 (the malicious wheel of not-so wholesome dares) to the overpriced Vibrators and dildos. Shempre, meron din dung Book of Tantric Sex, ___Sexual Positions with photos (real people,hindi cartoons), and the infamous Kama Sutra Book priced at around P2500. All in all, a great investment/ wedding gift dont you think? (wink wink)
Visit this shop... Its for the Skank in all of us.
I happened to chance upon this little boutique in Makati. Its worth checking out.
BETTER than BARE
I saw some really nice lingerie and that uber naughty maid's costume... Oh, me likey.
At one side, there's the cute underwears (ridiculously priced at around 650- 2000 bucks)... kunsabagay, its an investment. :)
There's also that accessories side (necklaces, rings, body designs)
the costume side (dominatrix, the milkmaid costume, the safari lingerie, the Sexy courtesan from the Moulin Rouge etc)
and on the other side, whoohoo, sex toys galore. The Strip Poker set costs around P1500 and the sex toys range from 650 (the malicious wheel of not-so wholesome dares) to the overpriced Vibrators and dildos. Shempre, meron din dung Book of Tantric Sex, ___Sexual Positions with photos (real people,hindi cartoons), and the infamous Kama Sutra Book priced at around P2500. All in all, a great investment/ wedding gift dont you think? (wink wink)
Visit this shop... Its for the Skank in all of us.
Pumepetiks
In an effort to waste valuable sleeping time, I am listening to my recent downloads from Limewire. let's call this playlist, The Vid-OK list, inspired by our two-day escapade at the Videoke Room.
Yehey! Motmot again! :)
Everlasting Love- The Company (gusto ko na talaga itong karirin come next Videoke Challenge)
Pakisabi na lang- The Company (pangarap ko na ipakanta ito kay Karylle para sa akin habang nakatitig ako kay MTB, with a solitary tear and Sharon's Its-Ok-Im-not-Sad-Im-Just-Full-of-Emotions smile)
Muntik Na Kitang Minahal- the Company (ulit!)
(Dream sequence ko dito: Kinakantahan ako ni MTB habang ako ay masaya sa piling ng iba... preferably si Piolo or si Albert Martinez)
Always- Antlantic Starr (na inspire ako sa duet ni Karylle & Bookie/ Me2 and AstroBoy... kailangan ko itong practice-in... mahirap na pag pinakanta kami ng duet ng future BF ko at hindi ko to alam... dapat, pang noontime show ang drama)
Ang aking Feel Good List (brought about by watching the DVD of AMy Grant's Best of Video)
Baby Baby
Good for Me- both by Amy Grant (tignan nyo yung MTV nito... ang super cute and kilig. Its wholesome romantic. They wear scuba outfits together, they shut each other's mouth.. basta, cute)
House of Love- AMy Grant and Vince Gill (isasama ko to sa Wedding Compilation ko kasama ng Everlasting Love and I Couldnt Ask for more!!!)
At ang aking Indie Music List...
Hiling (acoustic and radio version)- Paramita (i loooooove this song)
Rain Rain Go Away- Dashboard (?) hindi nila katunog and Dashboard... nagdududa pa rin ako. pero maganda tong song na ito
You Could Make a Killing- Aimee Mann (I miss this girl. I used to have this song, together with a bunch of other Aimee Mann songs but it got lost when my computer crashed way way back)
This is it.. kelangan ko na talagang matulog... Baka maginit na naman ang ulo ko at magsungit na naman ako ng di nararapat.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Ho-Hum
random thoughts while downloading Paramita's Hiling:
* After watching VH1 presents The Secret Childhood of Britney Spears, i partly understand why she does the things she does. Stage Mother kasi ang nanay nya eh.
* I love Conan O'Brien... he is sooooooo funny. And Tom Hanks is a fun guy too. Can't wait to see The Da Vinci Code
* Para pala akong si Princess from Mario Brothers. bakit? kasi yung admirer ko from HR, kahawig si Mario, tapos, yung Lolo from Purchasing, kamukha ni Kung Kupa.. Eh yung gusto kong si Luigi (na matangkad at payat), laging Missing in Action...
* kakatuwa... ang dami kong friends ang nakasama ngayong linggong ito.
Tuesday: Dishwalla and Anime
Saturday: Si Frodo at si Geno na kahit na spontaneous, ay nagpasaya sa akin... (nag bike sila papunta sa bahay ni Yonski na kapitbahay ko... eh mainit pa sa labas para mag bike, pinatuloy ko muna sila)
Saturday night: Gorj and Eka with free Dinner and dessert! yehey! sarap. :)
* kelangan ko na talagang magpalit ng bagong template... nagsasawa na ako sa template na ito
* After watching VH1 presents The Secret Childhood of Britney Spears, i partly understand why she does the things she does. Stage Mother kasi ang nanay nya eh.
* I love Conan O'Brien... he is sooooooo funny. And Tom Hanks is a fun guy too. Can't wait to see The Da Vinci Code
* Para pala akong si Princess from Mario Brothers. bakit? kasi yung admirer ko from HR, kahawig si Mario, tapos, yung Lolo from Purchasing, kamukha ni Kung Kupa.. Eh yung gusto kong si Luigi (na matangkad at payat), laging Missing in Action...
* kakatuwa... ang dami kong friends ang nakasama ngayong linggong ito.
Tuesday: Dishwalla and Anime
Saturday: Si Frodo at si Geno na kahit na spontaneous, ay nagpasaya sa akin... (nag bike sila papunta sa bahay ni Yonski na kapitbahay ko... eh mainit pa sa labas para mag bike, pinatuloy ko muna sila)
Saturday night: Gorj and Eka with free Dinner and dessert! yehey! sarap. :)
* kelangan ko na talagang magpalit ng bagong template... nagsasawa na ako sa template na ito
Oo
by Up Dharma Down
***Para kay MTB... Isang tanong mo lang.. This is sooooooooooooo my song for you
Di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
'Di mo lang alam
Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang panahon
At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan
Luhaan, sugatan, 'di mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Sana'y nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam
Kay tagal na panahon
Ako'y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa'yo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
'Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung ako'y nagkasala patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal
'Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s'ya na lang
Sana'y ako naman
'Di mo lang alam
Ika'y minamasdan
Sana'y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
'Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang
Nagbabalik sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako'y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
Kung ikaw at ako
Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
Ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako'y masasaktan ng ganito
Sana'y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
'Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s'ya na lang
Sana'y ako naman
Isang kindat man lang
'Di mo lang alam
O, ika'y minamasdan
Sana iyo'y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam
Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
***Para kay MTB... Isang tanong mo lang.. This is sooooooooooooo my song for you
Di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
'Di mo lang alam
Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang panahon
At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan
Luhaan, sugatan, 'di mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Sana'y nagtanong ka lang
Kung 'di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam
Kay tagal na panahon
Ako'y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa'yo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
'Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung ako'y nagkasala patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal
'Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s'ya na lang
Sana'y ako naman
'Di mo lang alam
Ika'y minamasdan
Sana'y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
'Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang
Nagbabalik sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako'y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
Kung ikaw at ako
Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
Ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako'y masasaktan ng ganito
Sana'y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
'Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s'ya na lang
Sana'y ako naman
Isang kindat man lang
'Di mo lang alam
O, ika'y minamasdan
Sana iyo'y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam
Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako'y iyong nasaktan
Saturday, May 06, 2006
That Email Scandal
i don't know what i did in my past life to deserve this.
After eating death threats for breakfast last year (please refer to my January 2005 posts), I am now facing a new challenge in my oh-so-surreal life. TODO NA TO!!!
...
People close to me will attest to the fact that I have always attracted the wrong kind of people. It seems that i am a magnet for freaks and weirdos. Except for Thouwhoshallnotbenamed and Ripples (who were both attractive and NORMAL), my admirers range from thought-provoking to vomit-inducing, abnormal to the paranormal.
Hmmmm, let me see... I have a great memory.
Nursery- i caught the fancy of my classmate who has no left thumb (R.B.)
Kinder- i had this schoolbusmate who tried to steal a kiss on my cheeks on a daily basis (he constantly failed) (L.L)
Grade 4- a high school student who was also my schoolbusmate tried courting me. He was not exactly going to school (pasaway kasi), he was just there in time for uwian.
First year college- i gained a stalker in the form of an epileptic John Mayer/ Brendan Fraser looking guy who upon seeing me one day told me in this very creepy voice... "huuuuuh (with matching sounds of a slight epileptic seizure) Anna Banana, you look so fine."
Sometime in college again- almost got courted by a guy whose idea of a great conversational piece is on the movement of the world market etc (bonds, history of africa and constantly speaks in inscrutable Tagalog)
the HR Guy- a guy from the office who steals candid pictures of me and grabs my photos from friendster, making them his wallpaper and screensaver.
and now...
this will totally top it all. I am getting love emails from a guy old enough to be my tatay/ lolo!!!
I admit that i am no great beauty.. that's why i dont understand why I'm being swarmed by these people... What did they see in me, my officemates ask? Maybe, they saw the nuts in me too.
***
Last thursday, i almost had a heart attack when i received an email from King Kupa, the DOM looking guy from the purchasing department. This was not actually the first time he has sent me an email, but this has got to be the most disturbing. I cried foul, showed it to my office friend who, in her state of shock, almost hurled at me, thereby catching the attention of my boss, Ms. DT. She asked me to forward his email to her and volunteered to reply to him. after i okay-ed her composition (even with some grammatical errors), i left my area to continue my life like normal. I was then surprised to see a commotion when i got back. Thanks to my ever-reliable bossing, everyone in my department has read that dreaded email! they are now asking me to report that sonofagun to the HR department, calling me a heartthrob and asking me favors (can you request him to purchase me a new computer for my office in cebu? dali! Malakas ka naman sa kanya eh).
Ayun... never in my life was i called a heartthrob, kikay (sabi ni bookie, kung anong kikay ko, anong kadiri daw ng mga nagkakagusto sa akin... )and malakas ang appeal... Ngayon lang. at hindi pa sa magandang konteksto. In an instant, i have become a celebrity, getting unwanted attention from our AVP and Managers... hindi sha nakakatuwa.
WHEN WILL MY LIFE BE NORMAL?
ayuuun. Alam kong curious na kayo sa email na ito,thus, i am posting his email, unedited, while i put in my replies in parentheses.
Be disturbed. be very disturbed.
***
-----Original Message-----
From: "KING KUPA"* [mailto:king.kupa@MYCOMPANY.com.ph*]
Sent: Thursday, May 04, 2006 2:50 PM
To: ANNA BANANA's EMAIL*
Subject:
Hi. I hope you're doing great and feeling okay.(what after getting this email? you have got to be out of your mind) Well, It's been a while now since I e mailed you and expressed my intentions (yup, it has been a while, i agree. I actually thought your father, the prince of darkness, has finally asked you to stop roaming earth and get back down there in that towering inferno). It was a difficult decision to make considering the circumstances (***i heard that a reptile's brain is the size of a pea. no wonder decision making must have caused you a debilitating migraine) I am fully aware of your inhibitions (wow, he must have scanned the entire thesaurus to find this word) and I feel the same (what? you also feel extreme disgust and fright when you look in a mirror? If yes, then, i totally agree... I feel the same way) ... I share the same feelings as yours (sick to your stomach and near to calling a voodoo doctor to cast a spell on you? because that is EXACTLY how im feeling)... reluctant as well (so much for wishful thinking)... nonetheless, fear of rejection and inhibitions will not stop me from expressing my intentions for you (ay, hindi obvious, ah!). Though it's tough (kasing kunat ng balat mo, gurang), might be painful (i'd prefer an open heart surgery without anaesthesia than to be in the same room as you), difficult ... i will try and will do my very best to prove my worth (you have already proven your worth. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING). I just wish that you will not doubt me and my feelings (HELLO?!? What is wrong with you, You effing maggot?!?). You can doubt me for the things that i have done, my experiences (huh? DI tayo close ha! pakialam ko kung anong napagdaanan mo.)but please never doubt my intentions for you (ano bang feeling mo? MU tayo???). I only have the purest intentions of you (kasing puro ng burak, kasing linis ng taong grasa... you have a family, for crying out loud!)... please believe me (ulol)... Its breaking my heart feeling that you are just ignoring my mails (buti nga sayo) ... I haven't recieved any response from you (helloooooo! una, RECEIVED yun hindi RECIEVED... basic spelling di alam. pangalawa, talagang wala kang marereceive na response sa akin, bwakanangsyet ka, dahil derecho sa basurahan ang mga emails mo. )... its ruining me learning that you're having second thoughts bout me (anong second thoughts? wala ngang FIRST thought ano!?!)... All I need is an opportunity (wag kang magtatangka... bibigwasan kita)... please give me that chance to show you my sincerity... my worth... I would like you to know me better and me to really establish myself (nagawa mo na... at hindi ka nakakatuwa. letse!). Please dont be mad at me... (I'm not mad... Im beyond mad. i'm enraged, im disgusted, repulsed, ... isa kang nakakarimarim na tao! Paksyet ka)
Sincerely... (take this from a married guy proposing love to a girl young enough to be his granddaughter)
IN SHORT, PWEDE BANG TANTANAN MO NA AKO???
------------------END-------------------
* changed for propriety's sake, though he surely doesnt deserve it
*** Because King Kupa closely resembles a reptile, ulupong, buwaya, i did a research on his family's brain capacity and its exactly just as i thought- not much.
FACT: Dinosaurs had small, reptile-sized brains (a bird of a mammal the size of a dinosaur would have a brain 10 times as big). The dinosaur brain was good enough to tell them where toÊ find food and how to escape danger, but they were unable to learn as well as birds and mammals. Only the small meat-eaters, such as the raptors, has as much brain power as birds.
Reptiles have a tiny brain contained inside a small bony box at the back of the skull. A dinosaur's brain did not have a "thinking" part. It simply sent nerve messages to the eyes, ears, mouth, and muscles to make the body work.
(www.worldbook.com)
After eating death threats for breakfast last year (please refer to my January 2005 posts), I am now facing a new challenge in my oh-so-surreal life. TODO NA TO!!!
...
People close to me will attest to the fact that I have always attracted the wrong kind of people. It seems that i am a magnet for freaks and weirdos. Except for Thouwhoshallnotbenamed and Ripples (who were both attractive and NORMAL), my admirers range from thought-provoking to vomit-inducing, abnormal to the paranormal.
Hmmmm, let me see... I have a great memory.
Nursery- i caught the fancy of my classmate who has no left thumb (R.B.)
Kinder- i had this schoolbusmate who tried to steal a kiss on my cheeks on a daily basis (he constantly failed) (L.L)
Grade 4- a high school student who was also my schoolbusmate tried courting me. He was not exactly going to school (pasaway kasi), he was just there in time for uwian.
First year college- i gained a stalker in the form of an epileptic John Mayer/ Brendan Fraser looking guy who upon seeing me one day told me in this very creepy voice... "huuuuuh (with matching sounds of a slight epileptic seizure) Anna Banana, you look so fine."
Sometime in college again- almost got courted by a guy whose idea of a great conversational piece is on the movement of the world market etc (bonds, history of africa and constantly speaks in inscrutable Tagalog)
the HR Guy- a guy from the office who steals candid pictures of me and grabs my photos from friendster, making them his wallpaper and screensaver.
and now...
this will totally top it all. I am getting love emails from a guy old enough to be my tatay/ lolo!!!
I admit that i am no great beauty.. that's why i dont understand why I'm being swarmed by these people... What did they see in me, my officemates ask? Maybe, they saw the nuts in me too.
***
Last thursday, i almost had a heart attack when i received an email from King Kupa, the DOM looking guy from the purchasing department. This was not actually the first time he has sent me an email, but this has got to be the most disturbing. I cried foul, showed it to my office friend who, in her state of shock, almost hurled at me, thereby catching the attention of my boss, Ms. DT. She asked me to forward his email to her and volunteered to reply to him. after i okay-ed her composition (even with some grammatical errors), i left my area to continue my life like normal. I was then surprised to see a commotion when i got back. Thanks to my ever-reliable bossing, everyone in my department has read that dreaded email! they are now asking me to report that sonofagun to the HR department, calling me a heartthrob and asking me favors (can you request him to purchase me a new computer for my office in cebu? dali! Malakas ka naman sa kanya eh).
Ayun... never in my life was i called a heartthrob, kikay (sabi ni bookie, kung anong kikay ko, anong kadiri daw ng mga nagkakagusto sa akin... )and malakas ang appeal... Ngayon lang. at hindi pa sa magandang konteksto. In an instant, i have become a celebrity, getting unwanted attention from our AVP and Managers... hindi sha nakakatuwa.
WHEN WILL MY LIFE BE NORMAL?
ayuuun. Alam kong curious na kayo sa email na ito,thus, i am posting his email, unedited, while i put in my replies in parentheses.
Be disturbed. be very disturbed.
***
-----Original Message-----
From: "KING KUPA"* [mailto:king.kupa@MYCOMPANY.com.ph*]
Sent: Thursday, May 04, 2006 2:50 PM
To: ANNA BANANA's EMAIL*
Subject:
Hi. I hope you're doing great and feeling okay.(what after getting this email? you have got to be out of your mind) Well, It's been a while now since I e mailed you and expressed my intentions (yup, it has been a while, i agree. I actually thought your father, the prince of darkness, has finally asked you to stop roaming earth and get back down there in that towering inferno). It was a difficult decision to make considering the circumstances (***i heard that a reptile's brain is the size of a pea. no wonder decision making must have caused you a debilitating migraine) I am fully aware of your inhibitions (wow, he must have scanned the entire thesaurus to find this word) and I feel the same (what? you also feel extreme disgust and fright when you look in a mirror? If yes, then, i totally agree... I feel the same way) ... I share the same feelings as yours (sick to your stomach and near to calling a voodoo doctor to cast a spell on you? because that is EXACTLY how im feeling)... reluctant as well (so much for wishful thinking)... nonetheless, fear of rejection and inhibitions will not stop me from expressing my intentions for you (ay, hindi obvious, ah!). Though it's tough (kasing kunat ng balat mo, gurang), might be painful (i'd prefer an open heart surgery without anaesthesia than to be in the same room as you), difficult ... i will try and will do my very best to prove my worth (you have already proven your worth. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING). I just wish that you will not doubt me and my feelings (HELLO?!? What is wrong with you, You effing maggot?!?). You can doubt me for the things that i have done, my experiences (huh? DI tayo close ha! pakialam ko kung anong napagdaanan mo.)but please never doubt my intentions for you (ano bang feeling mo? MU tayo???). I only have the purest intentions of you (kasing puro ng burak, kasing linis ng taong grasa... you have a family, for crying out loud!)... please believe me (ulol)... Its breaking my heart feeling that you are just ignoring my mails (buti nga sayo) ... I haven't recieved any response from you (helloooooo! una, RECEIVED yun hindi RECIEVED... basic spelling di alam. pangalawa, talagang wala kang marereceive na response sa akin, bwakanangsyet ka, dahil derecho sa basurahan ang mga emails mo. )... its ruining me learning that you're having second thoughts bout me (anong second thoughts? wala ngang FIRST thought ano!?!)... All I need is an opportunity (wag kang magtatangka... bibigwasan kita)... please give me that chance to show you my sincerity... my worth... I would like you to know me better and me to really establish myself (nagawa mo na... at hindi ka nakakatuwa. letse!). Please dont be mad at me... (I'm not mad... Im beyond mad. i'm enraged, im disgusted, repulsed, ... isa kang nakakarimarim na tao! Paksyet ka)
Sincerely... (take this from a married guy proposing love to a girl young enough to be his granddaughter)
IN SHORT, PWEDE BANG TANTANAN MO NA AKO???
------------------END-------------------
* changed for propriety's sake, though he surely doesnt deserve it
*** Because King Kupa closely resembles a reptile, ulupong, buwaya, i did a research on his family's brain capacity and its exactly just as i thought- not much.
FACT: Dinosaurs had small, reptile-sized brains (a bird of a mammal the size of a dinosaur would have a brain 10 times as big). The dinosaur brain was good enough to tell them where toÊ find food and how to escape danger, but they were unable to learn as well as birds and mammals. Only the small meat-eaters, such as the raptors, has as much brain power as birds.
Reptiles have a tiny brain contained inside a small bony box at the back of the skull. A dinosaur's brain did not have a "thinking" part. It simply sent nerve messages to the eyes, ears, mouth, and muscles to make the body work.
(www.worldbook.com)
Chronicles from a Full Blown Yuppie
Everybody loves to sing.
I should know. After spending two nights at the Videoke Room just in front of our office building, i realized that i am fast turning into a stereotypical yuppie who goes home late after partying with friends.
This week is a pretty good week. apart from the super major creepy moment, i can definitely say that i am cruising on calm waves of being 21.
Yes, yes. I am no longer a workaholic. Well, at least not this week. After learning that no matter how hard i work and how much hours i put into my job, I would never be completely happy because this is not my calling.
While finding that "CALLING",i opted to just maximize that one thing that's making me stay... the ever strengthening friendship that I am having with my friends.
But that doesnt mean that i am forgetting my Perk/ best friends... NO, no. Last last Friday, after drinking with my officemates at the despedida party for our assistant manager, i realized that to make that great night even greater, I need to be in the company of my original friends. Since i turned down the "not-free dinner" offer from Flamey and Mamba for an "all expense paid" one, i texted Anime, Mamba and Flamey to ask if they're up for an all night drinking session. Thank you to Mamba who just got her salary for the 4 Red Horse 500 which were actually bitin but due to the "other entertainment", we actually didnt consume all.
Guess what the other entertainment is? No, it is not poker... its not that glam but it is very "us." Thank you Flamey for introducing us to the wonderful world of Mahjong... Woooohoo!!! Bagong bisyo na naman ito. Matronic na matronic ah! THe only thing missing are our very own Male Bitches (MB)...
and the dream sequence soon followed...
Pag may nananalo: signals to one's MB to sit beside us while saying...
"baby, swerte ka ah. LIka nga, pahimas nga sa lucky charm ko" sabay kiss.
Pag may natatalo: "Nakanang@(*$298, lumayas layas ka nga dito, kaya ko minamalas eh!" (sabay hithit sa yosi)
Pag dumating ang mga anak: " Di ba sinabi kong wag kang pumunta dito? hindi pa ba nagsasaing ang tatay mo? oh eto... bumili ka ng ulam at mamaya pa ako uuwi."
... Media has truly corrupted our minds.
Come tuesday, i met up with the Perks once again... surprise surprise! Dishwalla was there! I missed him terribly. he looks yummy, with just the right amount of muscles... uuuy, back to freshman year. hehehe. Joke lang. Platonic na ang relasyon naming dalawa. Its a given.
Shempre, upon seeing me in a skirt,
" Anna Banana, mukha ka na talagang nagtatrabaho" while Anime, clad in a beige chongki shirt and green flipflops looked like a 'tanned bum, na masaya." SHempre, ang lola mo, long hair na. May fly away effect pa. Good for you anime. Ika nga ni Manay Ricky, Ang ganda!
Mega kwentuhan sa Coffee bean with Flamey, dressed to impress, after having her revalida, Dishwalla, dressed sharply as ever after an interview, Mamba and Queer both rushing out from the office and of course, Anime, who just got up from bed.
We had dinner at Thai in a Box and made chika about their own trips made last long weekend. Dishwalla showed us his pictures taken in the beautiful Coron, Palawan (We vow to go there this june) while Queer showed us a video clip of their "madonna dancing contest" at Puerto Galera. Laugh trip talaga.
Tapos, last Thursday, my officemates and I drank to celebrate the "almost" promotion of our friend, Karylle. Ang saya kasi kasama ulit namin sina Gelli, Andoy, Sir Mike, Ms. Tetchi, bookie (who will be leaving us for CEBU, good choice!) and other friends. I drank 6 bottles of beer to forget my frustration over MTB who was was Stoic was ever. hmmmmmmmmph.
Sa sobrang enjoy, ginawa ulit namin kagabi. We ate a lot, drank a little (barely a bottle), and sang songs that were enough to make people commit suicide. Shempre, kantahin ng lola mo ang Luha ng Aegis at I Have Nothing, carry mo?
Shempre, hindi. pero kebs lang. enjoy naman. Panira lang ang mga forces that be for ruining the night by pressuring Karylle for an overtime the morning after. Kawawa naman si Karylle.
Ayun... this early, we have already booked our Videoke date on Friday with Late Night Mahjong at Flamey's place. Anime, however, will not be able to join us since he has a thingie to got to. In his absence, Queer will be taking his place. I'm sure, because of beginner's luck, malilimas na naman ang datung namin ni Mamba.
I cant wait.
I should know. After spending two nights at the Videoke Room just in front of our office building, i realized that i am fast turning into a stereotypical yuppie who goes home late after partying with friends.
This week is a pretty good week. apart from the super major creepy moment, i can definitely say that i am cruising on calm waves of being 21.
Yes, yes. I am no longer a workaholic. Well, at least not this week. After learning that no matter how hard i work and how much hours i put into my job, I would never be completely happy because this is not my calling.
While finding that "CALLING",i opted to just maximize that one thing that's making me stay... the ever strengthening friendship that I am having with my friends.
But that doesnt mean that i am forgetting my Perk/ best friends... NO, no. Last last Friday, after drinking with my officemates at the despedida party for our assistant manager, i realized that to make that great night even greater, I need to be in the company of my original friends. Since i turned down the "not-free dinner" offer from Flamey and Mamba for an "all expense paid" one, i texted Anime, Mamba and Flamey to ask if they're up for an all night drinking session. Thank you to Mamba who just got her salary for the 4 Red Horse 500 which were actually bitin but due to the "other entertainment", we actually didnt consume all.
Guess what the other entertainment is? No, it is not poker... its not that glam but it is very "us." Thank you Flamey for introducing us to the wonderful world of Mahjong... Woooohoo!!! Bagong bisyo na naman ito. Matronic na matronic ah! THe only thing missing are our very own Male Bitches (MB)...
and the dream sequence soon followed...
Pag may nananalo: signals to one's MB to sit beside us while saying...
"baby, swerte ka ah. LIka nga, pahimas nga sa lucky charm ko" sabay kiss.
Pag may natatalo: "Nakanang@(*$298, lumayas layas ka nga dito, kaya ko minamalas eh!" (sabay hithit sa yosi)
Pag dumating ang mga anak: " Di ba sinabi kong wag kang pumunta dito? hindi pa ba nagsasaing ang tatay mo? oh eto... bumili ka ng ulam at mamaya pa ako uuwi."
... Media has truly corrupted our minds.
Come tuesday, i met up with the Perks once again... surprise surprise! Dishwalla was there! I missed him terribly. he looks yummy, with just the right amount of muscles... uuuy, back to freshman year. hehehe. Joke lang. Platonic na ang relasyon naming dalawa. Its a given.
Shempre, upon seeing me in a skirt,
" Anna Banana, mukha ka na talagang nagtatrabaho" while Anime, clad in a beige chongki shirt and green flipflops looked like a 'tanned bum, na masaya." SHempre, ang lola mo, long hair na. May fly away effect pa. Good for you anime. Ika nga ni Manay Ricky, Ang ganda!
Mega kwentuhan sa Coffee bean with Flamey, dressed to impress, after having her revalida, Dishwalla, dressed sharply as ever after an interview, Mamba and Queer both rushing out from the office and of course, Anime, who just got up from bed.
We had dinner at Thai in a Box and made chika about their own trips made last long weekend. Dishwalla showed us his pictures taken in the beautiful Coron, Palawan (We vow to go there this june) while Queer showed us a video clip of their "madonna dancing contest" at Puerto Galera. Laugh trip talaga.
Tapos, last Thursday, my officemates and I drank to celebrate the "almost" promotion of our friend, Karylle. Ang saya kasi kasama ulit namin sina Gelli, Andoy, Sir Mike, Ms. Tetchi, bookie (who will be leaving us for CEBU, good choice!) and other friends. I drank 6 bottles of beer to forget my frustration over MTB who was was Stoic was ever. hmmmmmmmmph.
Sa sobrang enjoy, ginawa ulit namin kagabi. We ate a lot, drank a little (barely a bottle), and sang songs that were enough to make people commit suicide. Shempre, kantahin ng lola mo ang Luha ng Aegis at I Have Nothing, carry mo?
Shempre, hindi. pero kebs lang. enjoy naman. Panira lang ang mga forces that be for ruining the night by pressuring Karylle for an overtime the morning after. Kawawa naman si Karylle.
Ayun... this early, we have already booked our Videoke date on Friday with Late Night Mahjong at Flamey's place. Anime, however, will not be able to join us since he has a thingie to got to. In his absence, Queer will be taking his place. I'm sure, because of beginner's luck, malilimas na naman ang datung namin ni Mamba.
I cant wait.