This 2006, I feel that
... I will finally have a love life. Yes, a boyfriend--a real one. Not imagined,not almost-but not quite, not invisible, but real.
... I shall either lose 7 pounds or gain 7 pounds. Lucky lucky 7.
... I shall be promoted, get higher pay, or die from stress.
... I will succeed in my battle against my evil vices.
... I shall be able to watch a major concert for free.
... I will finally have a car of my own.
... someone will fall head over heels in love (or lust) with me but since my #1 prediction will deter me from reciprocating his love, he will be brokenhearted, shall plot his revenge, endanger my life, cause a media ballyhoo, but will eventually fail because my knight in shining armor (prediction #1) shall keep me safe and unharmed. This lonely, brokenhearted person will go to jail but before he goes, he will ask for forgiveness and tell me that he did it because I am such a goddess.
... I shall straighten Piolo Pascual's gender issues by sweeping him off his feet, thus making him my knight in shining armor/ love life, making prediction #1 all the more true!
2006, here i come.
*** Since this is my life, i am allowed to make predictions about myself. Some may think of these as just mere fantasies/ broken new year's resolutions/worst case scenarios, but i love myself so much that I have given free reign to all my lies and hallucinations.
CHANGING MY WORLD, ONE MISTAKE AT A TIME.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Friday, December 30, 2005
Celebrating 2006 with a Booze
How did i spend my last working day for 2005? By getting stark raving drunk.
Shempre, punumpuno ng umaatikabong aksyon ang buhay ko. Hindi, joke lang. Walang nangyari, as usual.
Actually, it was a rather toxic day. I had to meet with a client (whom Karyll kept on referring to as "eto na yun, Anna eh"), clear up some billing concerns, and release IDs all at the same time. I barely had time to sit down and breathe.
yehey. Sweldo time. I'm psyched that they gave me a tax refund. finally, i can pay all my debts. But noooooo, shempre, something really crappy happens to ruin my sunshine. Kinain po ng ATM yung winithdraw ko. Salamat.
I reported the matter to the bank and they said i shall get it back (the amount i dispensed) after 2-3 weeks. Huwaaaaaat? Syet. Goodbye, pambayad utang.
It was my department's christmas party and revelation day. I failed to wrap my gift for my baby so we went to glorietta to buy some stuff and get my clothes from my brother at Powerbooks. Guess what? I got lost.
8 months of working in makati, 8 months of going in and out of Glorietta, and i still dont know where Tower records is. after 30 minutes of going round and round the place, i swallowed all my pride and asked the guard. Good thing that i arrived just in time to see my brother leaving. At dahil sa aking pagkawala, I failed to wrap my gift so i gave it to my baby, gladys, wrapped in a National bookstore plastic bag.
Party was held at Gerry's Glorietta. It was okay, i won a Company teddy bear. Woohoo. And i thought, why not get wasted? after 4 beers of San Mig Light, I am still not drunk. I mean, when you're used to chugging Red Horse grande, any other beer would taste like water.
After another round of beer, we transferred to Marina to ,well, drink and be merrier. I had a lot of fun talking to my office friends. New found appreciation ito. 2 more bottles of beer and i called up Anime to drink up some more. He called Flamethrower, who was already sleeping. Buti nga pumunta eh. My friends cant say no to free booze. 15 minutes later, they arrived and we transferred to Greenbelt. I dont know if its the amount of the beer i drank or the distance we had to walk but i suddenly felt sleepy. I had to retire after another bottle of beer which was extravagantly priced at P90.
I kissed Anime and Flamethrower goodbye and went home.
Dont tell but i slept without washing my face or changing clothes.
Good thing i woke up before 2006.
Shempre, punumpuno ng umaatikabong aksyon ang buhay ko. Hindi, joke lang. Walang nangyari, as usual.
Actually, it was a rather toxic day. I had to meet with a client (whom Karyll kept on referring to as "eto na yun, Anna eh"), clear up some billing concerns, and release IDs all at the same time. I barely had time to sit down and breathe.
yehey. Sweldo time. I'm psyched that they gave me a tax refund. finally, i can pay all my debts. But noooooo, shempre, something really crappy happens to ruin my sunshine. Kinain po ng ATM yung winithdraw ko. Salamat.
I reported the matter to the bank and they said i shall get it back (the amount i dispensed) after 2-3 weeks. Huwaaaaaat? Syet. Goodbye, pambayad utang.
It was my department's christmas party and revelation day. I failed to wrap my gift for my baby so we went to glorietta to buy some stuff and get my clothes from my brother at Powerbooks. Guess what? I got lost.
8 months of working in makati, 8 months of going in and out of Glorietta, and i still dont know where Tower records is. after 30 minutes of going round and round the place, i swallowed all my pride and asked the guard. Good thing that i arrived just in time to see my brother leaving. At dahil sa aking pagkawala, I failed to wrap my gift so i gave it to my baby, gladys, wrapped in a National bookstore plastic bag.
Party was held at Gerry's Glorietta. It was okay, i won a Company teddy bear. Woohoo. And i thought, why not get wasted? after 4 beers of San Mig Light, I am still not drunk. I mean, when you're used to chugging Red Horse grande, any other beer would taste like water.
After another round of beer, we transferred to Marina to ,well, drink and be merrier. I had a lot of fun talking to my office friends. New found appreciation ito. 2 more bottles of beer and i called up Anime to drink up some more. He called Flamethrower, who was already sleeping. Buti nga pumunta eh. My friends cant say no to free booze. 15 minutes later, they arrived and we transferred to Greenbelt. I dont know if its the amount of the beer i drank or the distance we had to walk but i suddenly felt sleepy. I had to retire after another bottle of beer which was extravagantly priced at P90.
I kissed Anime and Flamethrower goodbye and went home.
Dont tell but i slept without washing my face or changing clothes.
Good thing i woke up before 2006.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Walk Away
Ben Harper
Oh no- here comes that sun again.
And (that) means another day without you my friend.
And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself.
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away.
With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away and head for the door.
We've tried the goodbye so many days.
We walk in the same direction so that we could never stray.
They say if you love somebody than you have got to set them free,
but I would rather be locked to you than live in this pain and misery.
They say time will make all this go away,
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterdays.
And once again that rising sun is droppin' on down
And once again, you my friend, are nowhere to be found.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes, sometimes you just have to walk away, walk away and head for the door.
You just walk away - walk away - walk away.
You just walk away, walk on, turn and head for the door.
Oh no- here comes that sun again.
And (that) means another day without you my friend.
And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself.
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away.
With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?
But you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you just have to walk away - walk away and head for the door.
We've tried the goodbye so many days.
We walk in the same direction so that we could never stray.
They say if you love somebody than you have got to set them free,
but I would rather be locked to you than live in this pain and misery.
They say time will make all this go away,
but it's time that has taken my tomorrows and turned them into yesterdays.
And once again that rising sun is droppin' on down
And once again, you my friend, are nowhere to be found.
And it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes, sometimes you just have to walk away, walk away and head for the door.
You just walk away - walk away - walk away.
You just walk away, walk on, turn and head for the door.
By My Side
Ben Harper
Don't you get ahead of me
and I won't leave you behind
if you get unhappy
show me a sign
there's no love like lost love
no pain like a broken heart
there's no love like you and me
and no loss like us apart
promises promise is
only a word
and when softly spoken
is never heard
and a heart
is not a stone
and is fragile
when alone
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
my care for you
is from the ground up to the sky
it's over under up above
down below and to the side
no use in pretending
no use in saving face
my love is never ending
you are my saving grace
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
Don't you get ahead of me
and I won't leave you behind
if you get unhappy
show me a sign
there's no love like lost love
no pain like a broken heart
there's no love like you and me
and no loss like us apart
promises promise is
only a word
and when softly spoken
is never heard
and a heart
is not a stone
and is fragile
when alone
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
my care for you
is from the ground up to the sky
it's over under up above
down below and to the side
no use in pretending
no use in saving face
my love is never ending
you are my saving grace
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
Another Lonely Day
by Ben Harper
Yes indeed, I'm alone again.
And here comes emptiness crashing in.
It's either love or hate,
I can't find in between,
'cause I've been with witches and I've been with a queen.
It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.
Wish there was something now I could say or do.
I can resist anything but the temptation from you.
But I'd rather walk alone than chase you around.
I'd rather fall myself than let you drag me on down.
It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
And now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now, it's just another lonely day.
Yesterday seems like a life ago,
'cause the one I love today, I hardly know,
You I held so close in my heart, Oh dear,
Grow further from me with every fallen tear.
It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.
Yes indeed, I'm alone again.
And here comes emptiness crashing in.
It's either love or hate,
I can't find in between,
'cause I've been with witches and I've been with a queen.
It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.
Wish there was something now I could say or do.
I can resist anything but the temptation from you.
But I'd rather walk alone than chase you around.
I'd rather fall myself than let you drag me on down.
It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
And now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now, it's just another lonely day.
Yesterday seems like a life ago,
'cause the one I love today, I hardly know,
You I held so close in my heart, Oh dear,
Grow further from me with every fallen tear.
It wouldn't have worked out anyway.
So now it's just another lonely day.
Further along we just may.
But for now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.
For now it's just another lonely day.
I love you (Zach and Ethan), I love you not (my dentist)
I cant imagine having an affair with a dentist.
Imagine this, you lay on his chair while he puts his tools inside your wide-open mouth while you try your best not to drool/gag/ look stupid. (gosh, aint that an x-rated way to put it)PLus, he gets to see how dirty your teeth are. eeew.
I didnt do anything productive today, i mean apart from going to the dentist. I finished Before Sunrise, though. I failed to finish it last week but thanks to my ever reliable boring life, i succeeded this time.
It was an okay film. I was expecting something deeper, something more heartwrenching. I guess it was lacking in something, like memorable dialogues perhaps? But i must admit, Ethan Hawke has the most intense eyes... when he stares at you, you can really feel his eyes boring deep down into your soul, invading all your secrets and fantasies. I love him.
Plus, i especially love the Music booth scene where they do a stare-then look away game. IT was so effing sexy, i swear. I also liked the part where they simulated a phone conversation with their own friends, just to let the other person know in a slightly subtle manner all the emotions they have without fear of embarrassing each other. Love, love, love that part.
***
as you all know, i am currently addicted to Zach Braff, the star of Scrubs and Garden State (one of my favorite movies of the year). Thanks to my brother,i got to visit his video blog. Coolness. Apart from reading his oh-so funny stories, i love it that he recommends his favorite songs for us fans of his to download. Ah, something we have in common. http://gardenstate.typepad.com/ try visiting it. :)
Right now, i am downloading tons of Lori Mckenna and Ben Harper songs. Lori Mckenna sounds alot like Michelle branch, just a little bit folksy. Try downloading Stealing Kisses.
Oooooh, and Ben Harper, brilliant. I am loving his rendition of Marvin Gaye's Sexual Healing and his song, Waiting on an Angel. Thank you, ZB. you are a music genius. I love you.
Imagine this, you lay on his chair while he puts his tools inside your wide-open mouth while you try your best not to drool/gag/ look stupid. (gosh, aint that an x-rated way to put it)PLus, he gets to see how dirty your teeth are. eeew.
I didnt do anything productive today, i mean apart from going to the dentist. I finished Before Sunrise, though. I failed to finish it last week but thanks to my ever reliable boring life, i succeeded this time.
It was an okay film. I was expecting something deeper, something more heartwrenching. I guess it was lacking in something, like memorable dialogues perhaps? But i must admit, Ethan Hawke has the most intense eyes... when he stares at you, you can really feel his eyes boring deep down into your soul, invading all your secrets and fantasies. I love him.
Plus, i especially love the Music booth scene where they do a stare-then look away game. IT was so effing sexy, i swear. I also liked the part where they simulated a phone conversation with their own friends, just to let the other person know in a slightly subtle manner all the emotions they have without fear of embarrassing each other. Love, love, love that part.
***
as you all know, i am currently addicted to Zach Braff, the star of Scrubs and Garden State (one of my favorite movies of the year). Thanks to my brother,i got to visit his video blog. Coolness. Apart from reading his oh-so funny stories, i love it that he recommends his favorite songs for us fans of his to download. Ah, something we have in common. http://gardenstate.typepad.com/ try visiting it. :)
Right now, i am downloading tons of Lori Mckenna and Ben Harper songs. Lori Mckenna sounds alot like Michelle branch, just a little bit folksy. Try downloading Stealing Kisses.
Oooooh, and Ben Harper, brilliant. I am loving his rendition of Marvin Gaye's Sexual Healing and his song, Waiting on an Angel. Thank you, ZB. you are a music genius. I love you.
VL
Jason Mraz is having his second concert here! i have to see it! i have to see it!
but truth dawned on me. I have no money. Huwaaaa! nakakalungkot.
My saving grace na lang is for someone to invite me and treat me to his concert. Wink Wink. Ayan. Instead of taking me to New Zealand/ Switzerland, He (the mysterious and the unkown) can take me out to Jason Mraz's concert. You see, i could always settle for less (but of course, we must be in the VIP Section).
Aaaargh. I feel bad. I think i'm coming down with a flu. YEsterday, i was caught in the middle of a storm (OA, Heavy rain lang pala) and i was soaking wet. Kawawang bata. Now, i'm having a slight fever, a rotten feeling in the pit of my stomach, and a pain in my back. Puhlease. I'm having a vacation right now. Dont let sickness ruin it.
I'm going to the dentist later. My brother and I will be using our healthcard for the first time. Woohoo! Ive been suffering from the "aaargh" syndrome since my permament tooth filling proved that its not so permanent after all. I was chewing a gum when all of a sudden, i bit on something hard. Well, what do you know? it's my pasta. Gross. NOw, i keep on doing that thing with my tongue and always having the urge to shriek AAAARGH when something gets caught in between.
I am actually liking another Koreanovela. Not because the theme song is played by Sam MIlby but because, well, i kinda like stories like ONly You where the lead characters hate each other but secretly loving each other at the same time. Plus, food always seems delicious. But the greatest thing about it is the lead character (the guy). Can someone say, Yummy with me? :)
yummy talaga.
but truth dawned on me. I have no money. Huwaaaa! nakakalungkot.
My saving grace na lang is for someone to invite me and treat me to his concert. Wink Wink. Ayan. Instead of taking me to New Zealand/ Switzerland, He (the mysterious and the unkown) can take me out to Jason Mraz's concert. You see, i could always settle for less (but of course, we must be in the VIP Section).
Aaaargh. I feel bad. I think i'm coming down with a flu. YEsterday, i was caught in the middle of a storm (OA, Heavy rain lang pala) and i was soaking wet. Kawawang bata. Now, i'm having a slight fever, a rotten feeling in the pit of my stomach, and a pain in my back. Puhlease. I'm having a vacation right now. Dont let sickness ruin it.
I'm going to the dentist later. My brother and I will be using our healthcard for the first time. Woohoo! Ive been suffering from the "aaargh" syndrome since my permament tooth filling proved that its not so permanent after all. I was chewing a gum when all of a sudden, i bit on something hard. Well, what do you know? it's my pasta. Gross. NOw, i keep on doing that thing with my tongue and always having the urge to shriek AAAARGH when something gets caught in between.
I am actually liking another Koreanovela. Not because the theme song is played by Sam MIlby but because, well, i kinda like stories like ONly You where the lead characters hate each other but secretly loving each other at the same time. Plus, food always seems delicious. But the greatest thing about it is the lead character (the guy). Can someone say, Yummy with me? :)
yummy talaga.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
denouement
I don't know what happened, but i was surprisingly in a good mood today.
Considering that i have bangs that are way too short (na pilit kong kineri pero hindi talaga), and i was wearing my schoolgirl loafers with the chunky heels and round "nguso" na nagpapapunggok sa aking paa, i was feeling super ugly and wretched.
pero buti na lang, i am the ever sunshine-y girl--kahit feeling ugly, i still manage to hide my not-so-gorgeous appearance.
and they loved my up-do (my bangs pinned on top of my head). they said it made me look... innocent? baby face ako! yehey.
Naantig naman ang damdamin ko sa post secret message ni eunice,
i still christmas shop for you even though you're gone...
isang malalim na buntong hininga. he left me before Christmas, too... and i didnt even get the chance to christmas shop for him.
ayun. pangalawang buntong hininga.
Paksyet, motmot. what a perfect way to cap off my post.
Considering that i have bangs that are way too short (na pilit kong kineri pero hindi talaga), and i was wearing my schoolgirl loafers with the chunky heels and round "nguso" na nagpapapunggok sa aking paa, i was feeling super ugly and wretched.
pero buti na lang, i am the ever sunshine-y girl--kahit feeling ugly, i still manage to hide my not-so-gorgeous appearance.
and they loved my up-do (my bangs pinned on top of my head). they said it made me look... innocent? baby face ako! yehey.
Naantig naman ang damdamin ko sa post secret message ni eunice,
i still christmas shop for you even though you're gone...
isang malalim na buntong hininga. he left me before Christmas, too... and i didnt even get the chance to christmas shop for him.
ayun. pangalawang buntong hininga.
Paksyet, motmot. what a perfect way to cap off my post.
Sunday, December 25, 2005
My Christmas Wish is my Dreamboy.
Current Music: I touch Myself
Yedey! Christmas na ulit? Ang bilis. Parang last year lang, nagtethesis pa kami ni Manong Gorj. Ngayon, pareho na kaming part of the labor force.
Ayun na. Nakaraos din ang Pasko. at kamustahin naman natin ang laman ng ATM ko? isang tumataginting na 500 pesosesoses. oo. Dapat talaga sumama na ako sa mga nag-door to door upang manghingi ng aguinaldo.
nung friday, petiks ako. or better yet, wala ako sa mood magtrabaho. hello?!? gimme a break naman noh. its two days before Christmas, we shouldnt be stressing ourselves, right? right?
buti na lang, nakiayon sa amin ang MIS at mukhang down ang system namin. Hindi ako nakakareceive ng email from clients. Yun eh. Yahoo.
Come 3 pm, petiks kung petiks kami. Pumunta na lang ako sa batcave upang puntahan ang mga bat girls( The Girls of Banking). At shempre, hanggang pwedeng magrebelde at magkonsumo ng office hours, gagawin namin. Nilagyan ako ni Jen aka FHM Babe ng nail polish.
At ayun, 3:30, pinauwi na rin kami. Hihi.
After kong hakutin ang sangkaterbang gifts from my marketing friends (thanks Guys!), at namigay ng Marma's famous cookies, umuwi na kami ni Kuya.
Ay hindi pala. We decided to go to rockwell to shop. Actually, si kuya lang dahil as you all know, isa na akong purita laloo.
And guess who i saw at Rockwell? hindi ang lady thief o si Jaime Zobel de Ayala ( i saw him once, though, and resisted the urge to make 'mano' and pretend i was his long lost child). i saw...
PAPA PIOLO!!!
i love him! he is a god. uber gorgeous!!! at shempre, hindi ko talaga napigilan ang sarili ko. nagtago ako sa likod ng mga damit at nag attempt na picture-an sya. but not before i stared at him long and hard when he was just a few feet away from me sa Springfield ito. MAy kasama shang older lady at nakaakbay sha. Zinoooo yun?
At hindi ko po napigilan ang urge na tawagan si Gelli at magtitili. At shempre,what are the chances na habang nagra-rave ako at naga I love you Piolo ako ay nasa likod ko lang pala shang naglalakad. Ang tanging konsolasyon ko ay hindi nya ako kilala.
Pwede na akong mamatay.
Yedey! Christmas na ulit? Ang bilis. Parang last year lang, nagtethesis pa kami ni Manong Gorj. Ngayon, pareho na kaming part of the labor force.
Ayun na. Nakaraos din ang Pasko. at kamustahin naman natin ang laman ng ATM ko? isang tumataginting na 500 pesosesoses. oo. Dapat talaga sumama na ako sa mga nag-door to door upang manghingi ng aguinaldo.
nung friday, petiks ako. or better yet, wala ako sa mood magtrabaho. hello?!? gimme a break naman noh. its two days before Christmas, we shouldnt be stressing ourselves, right? right?
buti na lang, nakiayon sa amin ang MIS at mukhang down ang system namin. Hindi ako nakakareceive ng email from clients. Yun eh. Yahoo.
Come 3 pm, petiks kung petiks kami. Pumunta na lang ako sa batcave upang puntahan ang mga bat girls( The Girls of Banking). At shempre, hanggang pwedeng magrebelde at magkonsumo ng office hours, gagawin namin. Nilagyan ako ni Jen aka FHM Babe ng nail polish.
At ayun, 3:30, pinauwi na rin kami. Hihi.
After kong hakutin ang sangkaterbang gifts from my marketing friends (thanks Guys!), at namigay ng Marma's famous cookies, umuwi na kami ni Kuya.
Ay hindi pala. We decided to go to rockwell to shop. Actually, si kuya lang dahil as you all know, isa na akong purita laloo.
And guess who i saw at Rockwell? hindi ang lady thief o si Jaime Zobel de Ayala ( i saw him once, though, and resisted the urge to make 'mano' and pretend i was his long lost child). i saw...
PAPA PIOLO!!!
i love him! he is a god. uber gorgeous!!! at shempre, hindi ko talaga napigilan ang sarili ko. nagtago ako sa likod ng mga damit at nag attempt na picture-an sya. but not before i stared at him long and hard when he was just a few feet away from me sa Springfield ito. MAy kasama shang older lady at nakaakbay sha. Zinoooo yun?
At hindi ko po napigilan ang urge na tawagan si Gelli at magtitili. At shempre,what are the chances na habang nagra-rave ako at naga I love you Piolo ako ay nasa likod ko lang pala shang naglalakad. Ang tanging konsolasyon ko ay hindi nya ako kilala.
Pwede na akong mamatay.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Satan's Claw is Coming To Town
I never thought people like her existed.
3 days before Christmas and something really depressing occurred.
I went to work even though i could have taken a leave just because it was one of those rare occasions when my Boss, Ms. Dt decided to take a leave.
Gelli, Ambec and I agreed to party today. We almost brought a bottle of wine and some of that party poppers but decided it was too tacky. :)
Anyway, it was a rather semi-toxic day. I told myself that i wouldnt slack off just because my boss wasnt there. I'm doing that tomorrow-- when she's present. with the help of my best/worst seatmate ever, Ambec, I was able to clean up ten years worth of files. I am one happy girl.
After doing some work, i joined Ambec and Gelli in their moments of 'petikcity'. Ambec opted to enthusiastically watch an epic mini- series on her computer i.e. a slide show of all her saved pictures. Gelli showed me her recent purchase and it was a kitchen tool from Home TV Shopping. She was also one of the subjects of Borgy's Japanese porn pictures (feeling lang nya). I, on the otherhand, sat relaxed on my chair, my feet up on the CPU, cutting my way into oblivion. This is fun, i said to Ambec. I wish we could do this everyday.
Come 4:15, we were distracted by a not-so-loud commotion. Apparently, My good friend Karel's phone and wallet were stolen right inside the office. We were shocked. How could that be? we were inside the office, relishing our petikcity.
... and then it dawned on us...
so it was that girl.
A few minutes after lunch time, we noticed a woman sitting on one of our officemates' chair. We didnt bother asking who she was. We were used to seeing women/ men enter our area. Most of them were our corporate-based Customer care Representatives, others our brokers and agents. Plus, she looked like the lady who brings lunch to our office and the ID prep girl. She didnt elicit any suspicion from us, mainly because she was sitting there, relaxed and smiling.
Antipatika that i am, i just snobbed her.
t(&@*($ nya, she got us all fooled.
She did not only steal Karel's uber cool phone and wallet containing 800 pesos, all her IDs and 2 credit cards, but also used these cards to purchase stuff that amounted to 75,000 pesos... all in a matter of minutes (im guessing 30).
She is evil.
And guess where she shopped? Rockwell. She first went to buy at Lacoste, then bought 2 new phones, and purchased 2 children's toys worth P20, 000 each.
Buti na lang, my friends Bookie and Toni G. remembered her features (bakit hindi? eh katabi lang nila sa upuan) so they went to Rockwell to watch the surveillance cameras and hopefully pinpoint the thief.
Eto pa yung clincher nun,while Borgy was taking pictures of us, he accidentally got to capture the thief's side view on the background. Shempre, should the picture be exposed, maoobvious na puro ka petiksan ang pinagagagawa namin. and the picture was hilarious too. It showed Bookie in a kissing position (yung naka uber pout) towards Madelicious who wasnt aware of what Bookie was doing. Scandal ito. :)
So ayun. Trauma ito.
Whoever you are, kakarmahin ka ren. Tse.
3 days before Christmas and something really depressing occurred.
I went to work even though i could have taken a leave just because it was one of those rare occasions when my Boss, Ms. Dt decided to take a leave.
Gelli, Ambec and I agreed to party today. We almost brought a bottle of wine and some of that party poppers but decided it was too tacky. :)
Anyway, it was a rather semi-toxic day. I told myself that i wouldnt slack off just because my boss wasnt there. I'm doing that tomorrow-- when she's present. with the help of my best/worst seatmate ever, Ambec, I was able to clean up ten years worth of files. I am one happy girl.
After doing some work, i joined Ambec and Gelli in their moments of 'petikcity'. Ambec opted to enthusiastically watch an epic mini- series on her computer i.e. a slide show of all her saved pictures. Gelli showed me her recent purchase and it was a kitchen tool from Home TV Shopping. She was also one of the subjects of Borgy's Japanese porn pictures (feeling lang nya). I, on the otherhand, sat relaxed on my chair, my feet up on the CPU, cutting my way into oblivion. This is fun, i said to Ambec. I wish we could do this everyday.
Come 4:15, we were distracted by a not-so-loud commotion. Apparently, My good friend Karel's phone and wallet were stolen right inside the office. We were shocked. How could that be? we were inside the office, relishing our petikcity.
... and then it dawned on us...
so it was that girl.
A few minutes after lunch time, we noticed a woman sitting on one of our officemates' chair. We didnt bother asking who she was. We were used to seeing women/ men enter our area. Most of them were our corporate-based Customer care Representatives, others our brokers and agents. Plus, she looked like the lady who brings lunch to our office and the ID prep girl. She didnt elicit any suspicion from us, mainly because she was sitting there, relaxed and smiling.
Antipatika that i am, i just snobbed her.
t(&@*($ nya, she got us all fooled.
She did not only steal Karel's uber cool phone and wallet containing 800 pesos, all her IDs and 2 credit cards, but also used these cards to purchase stuff that amounted to 75,000 pesos... all in a matter of minutes (im guessing 30).
She is evil.
And guess where she shopped? Rockwell. She first went to buy at Lacoste, then bought 2 new phones, and purchased 2 children's toys worth P20, 000 each.
Buti na lang, my friends Bookie and Toni G. remembered her features (bakit hindi? eh katabi lang nila sa upuan) so they went to Rockwell to watch the surveillance cameras and hopefully pinpoint the thief.
Eto pa yung clincher nun,while Borgy was taking pictures of us, he accidentally got to capture the thief's side view on the background. Shempre, should the picture be exposed, maoobvious na puro ka petiksan ang pinagagagawa namin. and the picture was hilarious too. It showed Bookie in a kissing position (yung naka uber pout) towards Madelicious who wasnt aware of what Bookie was doing. Scandal ito. :)
So ayun. Trauma ito.
Whoever you are, kakarmahin ka ren. Tse.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
The Beekeeper and Carol of the Bells
I love this day :)
I got up late, got to the office early, got gifts from my officemates.
Plus, di ako mashadong toxic sa work. I love this day.
I dont know if its the cool breeze that's making me this excitable, but boy, i havent felt better in centuries.
sige na nga. I know the reason why im giddy with happiness.
I got a gift from him... it was unexpected. I was on my way out of the office when he called me and handed me a Tori Amos CD. I was so touched, i was almost close to tears. I know, dyahe.
I cant stop smiling.
I know, i know. I said i dont like him anymore, na i know na things between us could never ever work, but still...
Nakakatawa kasi it was just last night when i said na there's nothing left of my pagsintang pururot for him... and then he came waltzing back into my life.
But its not the only reason im happy.
My org friends had a carolling at our place. Sobrang high ako from seeing a lot of my friends. God, i miss them to pieces.
Thanks for making me sooooo darn happy i could cry.
I am such a baby.
I got up late, got to the office early, got gifts from my officemates.
Plus, di ako mashadong toxic sa work. I love this day.
I dont know if its the cool breeze that's making me this excitable, but boy, i havent felt better in centuries.
sige na nga. I know the reason why im giddy with happiness.
I got a gift from him... it was unexpected. I was on my way out of the office when he called me and handed me a Tori Amos CD. I was so touched, i was almost close to tears. I know, dyahe.
I cant stop smiling.
I know, i know. I said i dont like him anymore, na i know na things between us could never ever work, but still...
Nakakatawa kasi it was just last night when i said na there's nothing left of my pagsintang pururot for him... and then he came waltzing back into my life.
But its not the only reason im happy.
My org friends had a carolling at our place. Sobrang high ako from seeing a lot of my friends. God, i miss them to pieces.
Thanks for making me sooooo darn happy i could cry.
I am such a baby.
Monday, December 19, 2005
Zzzzzzzz..
Can you believe that barely one week after pay day and i am going flat broke?
I dont know where the money went (why dont you try asking the Baristas in Starbucks for the answer, my conscience quirks) basta its almost gone.
Its so hard not to have money. Im actually fretting as to how i can live until the next pay day. Oh crap, this isnt even a problem. I've had worse. I mean college was just my poorest stage in life and i was able to survive. Eto pa kaya.
I still cant get over the fact that i will not be getting anything this christmas. What's more concerning is that im actually part of the "pinipilahan".
You may start wondering why MTB is not part of my posts anymore. Well, apart from the fact that i have no time to even pluck my brows, I am no longer obsessing about him. Yup. Im done with him, no more turning back. He had his chance with me, he didnt take it, now he will never ever get a taste of the Luuuuv Machine. (that sounded creepy).
I am so sleepy...
I dont know where the money went (why dont you try asking the Baristas in Starbucks for the answer, my conscience quirks) basta its almost gone.
Its so hard not to have money. Im actually fretting as to how i can live until the next pay day. Oh crap, this isnt even a problem. I've had worse. I mean college was just my poorest stage in life and i was able to survive. Eto pa kaya.
I still cant get over the fact that i will not be getting anything this christmas. What's more concerning is that im actually part of the "pinipilahan".
You may start wondering why MTB is not part of my posts anymore. Well, apart from the fact that i have no time to even pluck my brows, I am no longer obsessing about him. Yup. Im done with him, no more turning back. He had his chance with me, he didnt take it, now he will never ever get a taste of the Luuuuv Machine. (that sounded creepy).
I am so sleepy...
Sunday, December 18, 2005
My Gift, My Curse
Ang hirap maging BIBO Kid.
siyempre, nagfeeling na naman po ako. Atribida-atribidahan, feeling college pa rin.
Kaya ayoko masyadong pinapakita ang aking ever so colorful personality, masyadong naalala ng mga tao eh. Is it my fault if im uber kulit and silly? tsaka eh ano naman ngayon kung mahilig akong sumayaw ng aking signature dance step na "always", bakit ba?
Ano ba ang hinihumutok ko? well, aside from the fact na feeling ko ay eps na eps na ang labas ko sa mga tao sa office, ay hindi ko na naman natupad ang promise ko (at pangarap ko na rin) na maging isang Maria Clara/ matimtimang birhen/ career woman/ NORMAL na tao. pano ba naman, tama ba naman na ako ang ivolunteer sa halos lahat ng bagay sa office?
... mag minutes sa marketing meeting
... maging "amending" body sa unyon
... maging lider- lideran sa christmas party dance ng marketing
... maging "sugo" na bigyan si bookie ng rosas habang nagperperform sila na parang crazed fan nila ako (wala na lang akong nagawa, tinulak nila ako sa gitna ng stage!)
salamat sa mga kaibigan ko sa office, sira na naman po ang reputasyon ko.
In fairview, okay naman ang aming "Mean girls" dance, we didnt look slutty, although feeling ng mga tao, kinareer ko ang pagsayaw ko (magaling lang talaga ako magsayaw, at magbuhat ng sariling bangko, Yun eh!) I think naappreciate naman ng mga tao yung effort effortan namin na sumayaw. Shempre, natupad din ang pangarap kong maging magandang kulot. OO, pagkatapos kong pagkagastusan ng limpak limpak na salapi ang aking buhok para dumerecho (na hindi naman naging mashadong effective) ay ni-curl din nila na parang barbie doll. isang araw lang naman, pero dahil mashado akong naaliw, by next year isa na akong afro. (shempre, di naman noh! baka akalain nila, talagang taga-tribo ako).
Ayun na. nakakatawa. buti pala hindi ko kinarir yung costume chuva nila (although nagdala ako ng pakpak ng angel at fairy, di ko nga lang sinuot). hello! may isa dun, nag encantadia outfit, na mala gagamboy at ang t-shirt nya ay mga CDs lang. tama. isa na itong kabuhayan. at kamustahin naman natin ang kanyang talent presentation, kumanta po sha ng GO the Distance, with matching powerpoint presentation ng kanyang buhay, from baby pictures to his metamorphosis from a boy to a flaming member of the confederation. Salamat, ____, dahil sa pagpapakita mo ng iyong talambuhay, na wala naman kaming kinalaman, ay nabago mo ang buhay ko.
I am dripping with sarcasm, am i not? epekto ito ng 24/7 scrubs marathon namin.
Bukas, kelangan ko na namang harapin ang totoong mundo. paper work, irate customers, and a whole new (not to mention embarrassing) reputation. No thanks to my ever so- atribida nature. feeling ko, the world is one big Ecosoc genmeet.
Mahirap talaga ang may superpower.
siyempre, nagfeeling na naman po ako. Atribida-atribidahan, feeling college pa rin.
Kaya ayoko masyadong pinapakita ang aking ever so colorful personality, masyadong naalala ng mga tao eh. Is it my fault if im uber kulit and silly? tsaka eh ano naman ngayon kung mahilig akong sumayaw ng aking signature dance step na "always", bakit ba?
Ano ba ang hinihumutok ko? well, aside from the fact na feeling ko ay eps na eps na ang labas ko sa mga tao sa office, ay hindi ko na naman natupad ang promise ko (at pangarap ko na rin) na maging isang Maria Clara/ matimtimang birhen/ career woman/ NORMAL na tao. pano ba naman, tama ba naman na ako ang ivolunteer sa halos lahat ng bagay sa office?
... mag minutes sa marketing meeting
... maging "amending" body sa unyon
... maging lider- lideran sa christmas party dance ng marketing
... maging "sugo" na bigyan si bookie ng rosas habang nagperperform sila na parang crazed fan nila ako (wala na lang akong nagawa, tinulak nila ako sa gitna ng stage!)
salamat sa mga kaibigan ko sa office, sira na naman po ang reputasyon ko.
In fairview, okay naman ang aming "Mean girls" dance, we didnt look slutty, although feeling ng mga tao, kinareer ko ang pagsayaw ko (magaling lang talaga ako magsayaw, at magbuhat ng sariling bangko, Yun eh!) I think naappreciate naman ng mga tao yung effort effortan namin na sumayaw. Shempre, natupad din ang pangarap kong maging magandang kulot. OO, pagkatapos kong pagkagastusan ng limpak limpak na salapi ang aking buhok para dumerecho (na hindi naman naging mashadong effective) ay ni-curl din nila na parang barbie doll. isang araw lang naman, pero dahil mashado akong naaliw, by next year isa na akong afro. (shempre, di naman noh! baka akalain nila, talagang taga-tribo ako).
Ayun na. nakakatawa. buti pala hindi ko kinarir yung costume chuva nila (although nagdala ako ng pakpak ng angel at fairy, di ko nga lang sinuot). hello! may isa dun, nag encantadia outfit, na mala gagamboy at ang t-shirt nya ay mga CDs lang. tama. isa na itong kabuhayan. at kamustahin naman natin ang kanyang talent presentation, kumanta po sha ng GO the Distance, with matching powerpoint presentation ng kanyang buhay, from baby pictures to his metamorphosis from a boy to a flaming member of the confederation. Salamat, ____, dahil sa pagpapakita mo ng iyong talambuhay, na wala naman kaming kinalaman, ay nabago mo ang buhay ko.
I am dripping with sarcasm, am i not? epekto ito ng 24/7 scrubs marathon namin.
Bukas, kelangan ko na namang harapin ang totoong mundo. paper work, irate customers, and a whole new (not to mention embarrassing) reputation. No thanks to my ever so- atribida nature. feeling ko, the world is one big Ecosoc genmeet.
Mahirap talaga ang may superpower.
Monday, December 12, 2005
Peek-a-Boobs
And I thought nothing could ruin my day...
I had a great start. I woke up on time, loving the December breeze and taking my time in the shower.
I put on my orange flannel shirt, didn't eat my breakfast (wala akong gana) and went to work with surprising enthusiasm. Uuuy, my favorite Revo driver was the one to drive me to work. Yedey. I was still smiling and flabbergasted because of my happy encounter with the not-so-attractive-but-I-still-crush-on-him driver even though we didn't talk much (but he said hi to me :)) and I concluded right then and there that I will maintain my happy disposition all throughout the day.
Haha. What was I thinking?
It didn't even last half a day.
I had to do all the work of my other teammates while juggling two phone calls at the same time. I have no complaints whatsoever, it's just so exhausting. Stress will kill me in no time.
Also, I got this funny phone call from my officemate, Sir Andoy who lectured me on proper/ decent dressing. Apparently, they noticed that my orange flannel button down shirt was "too revealing" and that they were only concerned about me. I was both grateful and embarrassed by the call since I know that "too revealing" was a translation for "we accidentally got to peek at your boobs while you were picking something up so to prevent others from having a breast fest (especially from the male-infested Admin department), please wear a blazer or close your buttons a little higher."
But I appreciate the concern, really. I was just ashamed since my undergarment did little to hide my lust-inducing unmentionables (what can I do? It's lacy/ low-cut!)
If it wasn't for my crush, my world would have collapsed earlier.
I had a great start. I woke up on time, loving the December breeze and taking my time in the shower.
I put on my orange flannel shirt, didn't eat my breakfast (wala akong gana) and went to work with surprising enthusiasm. Uuuy, my favorite Revo driver was the one to drive me to work. Yedey. I was still smiling and flabbergasted because of my happy encounter with the not-so-attractive-but-I-still-crush-on-him driver even though we didn't talk much (but he said hi to me :)) and I concluded right then and there that I will maintain my happy disposition all throughout the day.
Haha. What was I thinking?
It didn't even last half a day.
I had to do all the work of my other teammates while juggling two phone calls at the same time. I have no complaints whatsoever, it's just so exhausting. Stress will kill me in no time.
Also, I got this funny phone call from my officemate, Sir Andoy who lectured me on proper/ decent dressing. Apparently, they noticed that my orange flannel button down shirt was "too revealing" and that they were only concerned about me. I was both grateful and embarrassed by the call since I know that "too revealing" was a translation for "we accidentally got to peek at your boobs while you were picking something up so to prevent others from having a breast fest (especially from the male-infested Admin department), please wear a blazer or close your buttons a little higher."
But I appreciate the concern, really. I was just ashamed since my undergarment did little to hide my lust-inducing unmentionables (what can I do? It's lacy/ low-cut!)
If it wasn't for my crush, my world would have collapsed earlier.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
I Lab Scrubs
Isa akong batang walang magawa.
nakakalungkot naman, after all my tragicomedy stories na akala mo ay sa pelikula lang nangyayari, heto at walang kalatoy- latoy na naman ang buhay ko.
Dumating si Scarlet at pinagluto ko siya ng meatless spaghetti c/o our company christmas pack. ayun, it was good while it lasted.
I am a happy girl. May starbucks na sa aming lugar! isa na kaming 100% sosy subdivision! Although alam ko nang matagal nang sosy ang aming place, which id rather not disclose kung san.. shempre.
Uy, i have a new addiction. I LOVE SCRUBS. Can i just say Zach Braff is the funniest :)
Thank you Garden State for introducing me to him.
nakakalungkot naman, after all my tragicomedy stories na akala mo ay sa pelikula lang nangyayari, heto at walang kalatoy- latoy na naman ang buhay ko.
Dumating si Scarlet at pinagluto ko siya ng meatless spaghetti c/o our company christmas pack. ayun, it was good while it lasted.
I am a happy girl. May starbucks na sa aming lugar! isa na kaming 100% sosy subdivision! Although alam ko nang matagal nang sosy ang aming place, which id rather not disclose kung san.. shempre.
Uy, i have a new addiction. I LOVE SCRUBS. Can i just say Zach Braff is the funniest :)
Thank you Garden State for introducing me to him.
I know
| You Are Most Like Miranda! |
 While you've had your fair share of romance, men don't come first Guys are a distant third to your friends and career. And this independence *is* attractive to some men, in measured doses. Remember that if you imagine the best outcome, it might just happen. Romantic prediction: Someone from your past is waiting to reconnect... But you'll have to think of him differently, if you want things to work. |
Walang magawa
| You are a Rocker Girl! |
 If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's. Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know. Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime. Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker! |
I am Mother Earth
| Your Element is Earth |
 Your power color: yellow Your energy: balancing Your season: changing of seasons Dedicated and responsible, you are a rock to your friends. You are skilled at working out even the most difficult problems. Low key and calm, you are happiest when you are around loved ones. Ambitious and goal oriented, you have long term plans to be successful. |
Dilbert Makes my Day
I can clearly relate.
I work more than 10 hours a day, do two jobs and get paid for only one and my boss gets mad at me for not giving her the phone when her boyfriend called.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
A Pessimist is Never Disappointed
How many times do I have to tell myself never to underestimate God's sense of humor?
I am on a "D" roll! After the unexpected breakdown last Sunday night over a photo album, I didn"t think my mood could get worse. Apparently, the world has other plans for me.
I had to put off my alarm clock twice so I got up at around 5:45 instead of 5:30. I scrambled to my feet, hurried up since I know Monday traffic is such a bitch. When I got to the FX station, I just saw my favorite FX, rather Revo Driver pull out and drive off. Great, I was a minute late which caused me another 15 minutes before the next shuttle arrived.
Because of the music, which was plagued by novelty songs, I wasn't able to sleep. I had to put on my Ipod to save myself from having a corny LSS. Plus, I was fretting hard because like I've said, traffic on a Monday is super horrible.
When I got to the office, harassed and panting, I realized that I was still early. 8:01 am and only a few people were inside the office. When I got to my desk, I was surprised to see a turones de mane sitting idly on my table. I asked Ambec if she knew who put it there but she said she didn't. O-kay.
So, I thought that it was our boss, Ms. DT, who put it there. I joked her about giving us pasalubong with a price tag on it. She said she wasn't able to buy us pasalubong kaya it's impossible that it would come from her.
That's when I started to look around the area for other "tagaytay" comers. I only saw one... it was him. I still couldnt believe it... he actually bought me a pasalubong. Grrrrreat. Siyempre, the thought that i actually joked him about making a bilin before they went to Tagaytay kinda ruined the purity of it, but still...
Now, all i need is for him to come over and ask me if i liked the gift... okay, waiting... waiting. Drats. 3 hours after, he still didnt come forward. A few minutes before lunch time, my pseudo boss, Ms. Tetchi said hi to me. She was on leave for the entire morning so I was surprised when she came over to my cubicle and asked, "did you like my pasalubong? its for you and Ambec."
HUWAAAAAAAAT? how could i be soooooooo effing stupid? grrrr... talk about another "what are the chances" moment. I seriously thought na it was from him, i mean duh?!?! Malay ko ba na iniwanan pala ni Ms. tetchi yung turones nung bumalik sha sa office nung sunday? Kainis. It was a slap back to reality.
Again, Lord, you are a natural comic.
I am laughing on the inside.
Moral of the story:
Hindi porke nagbilin ka ng pasalubong, bibilhan ka nya. HINDI.
Hindi porke may nakalagay na pasalubong na galing sa tagaytay sa table mo, at wala nang ibang taong sa area mo na galing Tagaytay kundi si ano, ay galing na sa kanya yun. HINDI.
Hindi porke tingin sha ng tingin sa area mo tuwing nagtatanong ka kung kanino galing yung pasalubong, eh siya yun. HINDI.
Hindi Porke't kala mo its a sign na from God, eh yun na yun, na pwede mo nang ituloy ang Bargaining mo with God. HINDI.
... hay naku, Anna Michelle, TUMIGIL KA NA.
I am on a "D" roll! After the unexpected breakdown last Sunday night over a photo album, I didn"t think my mood could get worse. Apparently, the world has other plans for me.
I had to put off my alarm clock twice so I got up at around 5:45 instead of 5:30. I scrambled to my feet, hurried up since I know Monday traffic is such a bitch. When I got to the FX station, I just saw my favorite FX, rather Revo Driver pull out and drive off. Great, I was a minute late which caused me another 15 minutes before the next shuttle arrived.
Because of the music, which was plagued by novelty songs, I wasn't able to sleep. I had to put on my Ipod to save myself from having a corny LSS. Plus, I was fretting hard because like I've said, traffic on a Monday is super horrible.
When I got to the office, harassed and panting, I realized that I was still early. 8:01 am and only a few people were inside the office. When I got to my desk, I was surprised to see a turones de mane sitting idly on my table. I asked Ambec if she knew who put it there but she said she didn't. O-kay.
So, I thought that it was our boss, Ms. DT, who put it there. I joked her about giving us pasalubong with a price tag on it. She said she wasn't able to buy us pasalubong kaya it's impossible that it would come from her.
That's when I started to look around the area for other "tagaytay" comers. I only saw one... it was him. I still couldnt believe it... he actually bought me a pasalubong. Grrrrreat. Siyempre, the thought that i actually joked him about making a bilin before they went to Tagaytay kinda ruined the purity of it, but still...
Now, all i need is for him to come over and ask me if i liked the gift... okay, waiting... waiting. Drats. 3 hours after, he still didnt come forward. A few minutes before lunch time, my pseudo boss, Ms. Tetchi said hi to me. She was on leave for the entire morning so I was surprised when she came over to my cubicle and asked, "did you like my pasalubong? its for you and Ambec."
HUWAAAAAAAAT? how could i be soooooooo effing stupid? grrrr... talk about another "what are the chances" moment. I seriously thought na it was from him, i mean duh?!?! Malay ko ba na iniwanan pala ni Ms. tetchi yung turones nung bumalik sha sa office nung sunday? Kainis. It was a slap back to reality.
Again, Lord, you are a natural comic.
I am laughing on the inside.
Moral of the story:
Hindi porke nagbilin ka ng pasalubong, bibilhan ka nya. HINDI.
Hindi porke may nakalagay na pasalubong na galing sa tagaytay sa table mo, at wala nang ibang taong sa area mo na galing Tagaytay kundi si ano, ay galing na sa kanya yun. HINDI.
Hindi porke tingin sha ng tingin sa area mo tuwing nagtatanong ka kung kanino galing yung pasalubong, eh siya yun. HINDI.
Hindi Porke't kala mo its a sign na from God, eh yun na yun, na pwede mo nang ituloy ang Bargaining mo with God. HINDI.
... hay naku, Anna Michelle, TUMIGIL KA NA.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Anna Banana & the Infinite Sadness: This too shall Pass
What's Playing: Cannonball by Damien Rice
Mood: nostalgic and depressed
All i wanted was that damn Pilates reading.
********
Where did the tears come from?
I Knew it. The universe is telling me not to exercise for it will only bring about muscle pains, which include heartaches.
As i looked for my one-page Pilates handout in my thoushallnotbenamed box (a box he gave me for my bday containing things I remind him of), i came across so many things from my past. There were the letters from my high school batchmates when we had a Soc Sci project that entailed writing as much letters to one another as possible, my blue books containing my sorry-looking grades in Math 17, my so-called journals, and of course, some photo albums which i forgot i had.
thoushallnotbenamed aka pandora's box
I scanned each one of the albums, with a smile on my face. The first photo album was my senior prom, certainly not my proudest moment. I cringed while looking at them, although I had to laugh at my manang gown and makeup. what was i thinking?
Next album was my junior prom, now, that was something. I was at my thinnest and 'prettiest' then. I remember that was the time i lost 15 pounds (8 pounds of which i gained back in senior year, thus explaining the hideous photographs of senior prom).
A-ha! first year college. Ooooh, i looked so young then. I smiled at the pictures from Tagaytay. My block was wearing this "pakitang gilas shirt" i.e. our block shirt with all the names of my blockies printed at the back. I saw pictures from our Bulacan outing and i laughed at how conservative and naive we were back then. Of course, i saw his face on every one of these pictures. He was my blockmate, after all. I didnt feel any sting because well, it garnered little memories of the two of us. It was more of a group memory actually, happy ones at that. And yes, i was wearing a t-shirt (not the body hugging shirt, more like the boyish shirt) and eeek, cargo pants.
Still, i was smiling. This is fun, i thought. Its like im 17 again.
My smile faded instantly, like a cassette getting stuck, when i saw the last album. It was my 18th bday album. And just like a movie, the song Cannonball played on my Ipod.
There's still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
We were seated at the balcony of our terrace, smiling like we were the happiest couple in the world. How easily i remembered. The feelings came rushing back in and putting down my defenses, like waves crashing and destroying that beautiful (but fragile) sand castle.
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on
Shit, i cant believe im crying again. Not just the practiced one-side tear but the bawling-like-a-baby tear. I know im over him, I'm SURE im over him. but why cant the tears stop falling?
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on
I remember the exact feeling/ thoughts at that moment... I, rather WE were thinking we would actually be together until we were 80... that we'd get married at that small church in Tagaytay, have four kids, and fight over where we should reside, north or south.
We didnt even last longer than a year... As a matter of fact, there wasnt even a WE to begin with. Just You and I mixed with a lot of I love you's and heartaches.
mamba (she's the black apparition at the farthest left) flamethrower, moi, thoushallnotbenamed and tada! Beyonce, his current.
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
I cant say that this will be my last good cry over him. I never expected this sudden outburst, in the first place. I thought I had exhausted all my pent-up emotions and tears for him. Im wrong, AGAIN.
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
Im sure tomorrow, i'll be laughing at this moment, shaking my head and asking myself, what the hell was wrong with me. But for now, I guess i'll just be clutching that photograph to sleep, wishing it was all just a bad dream and that i will have my HAPPY ENDING. For now, its just me and this infinite sadness.
Mood: nostalgic and depressed
All i wanted was that damn Pilates reading.
********
Where did the tears come from?
I Knew it. The universe is telling me not to exercise for it will only bring about muscle pains, which include heartaches.
As i looked for my one-page Pilates handout in my thoushallnotbenamed box (a box he gave me for my bday containing things I remind him of), i came across so many things from my past. There were the letters from my high school batchmates when we had a Soc Sci project that entailed writing as much letters to one another as possible, my blue books containing my sorry-looking grades in Math 17, my so-called journals, and of course, some photo albums which i forgot i had.
thoushallnotbenamed aka pandora's box
I scanned each one of the albums, with a smile on my face. The first photo album was my senior prom, certainly not my proudest moment. I cringed while looking at them, although I had to laugh at my manang gown and makeup. what was i thinking?
Next album was my junior prom, now, that was something. I was at my thinnest and 'prettiest' then. I remember that was the time i lost 15 pounds (8 pounds of which i gained back in senior year, thus explaining the hideous photographs of senior prom).
A-ha! first year college. Ooooh, i looked so young then. I smiled at the pictures from Tagaytay. My block was wearing this "pakitang gilas shirt" i.e. our block shirt with all the names of my blockies printed at the back. I saw pictures from our Bulacan outing and i laughed at how conservative and naive we were back then. Of course, i saw his face on every one of these pictures. He was my blockmate, after all. I didnt feel any sting because well, it garnered little memories of the two of us. It was more of a group memory actually, happy ones at that. And yes, i was wearing a t-shirt (not the body hugging shirt, more like the boyish shirt) and eeek, cargo pants.
Still, i was smiling. This is fun, i thought. Its like im 17 again.
My smile faded instantly, like a cassette getting stuck, when i saw the last album. It was my 18th bday album. And just like a movie, the song Cannonball played on my Ipod.
There's still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
We were seated at the balcony of our terrace, smiling like we were the happiest couple in the world. How easily i remembered. The feelings came rushing back in and putting down my defenses, like waves crashing and destroying that beautiful (but fragile) sand castle.
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on
Shit, i cant believe im crying again. Not just the practiced one-side tear but the bawling-like-a-baby tear. I know im over him, I'm SURE im over him. but why cant the tears stop falling?
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on
I remember the exact feeling/ thoughts at that moment... I, rather WE were thinking we would actually be together until we were 80... that we'd get married at that small church in Tagaytay, have four kids, and fight over where we should reside, north or south.
We didnt even last longer than a year... As a matter of fact, there wasnt even a WE to begin with. Just You and I mixed with a lot of I love you's and heartaches.
mamba (she's the black apparition at the farthest left) flamethrower, moi, thoushallnotbenamed and tada! Beyonce, his current.
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
I cant say that this will be my last good cry over him. I never expected this sudden outburst, in the first place. I thought I had exhausted all my pent-up emotions and tears for him. Im wrong, AGAIN.
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
Im sure tomorrow, i'll be laughing at this moment, shaking my head and asking myself, what the hell was wrong with me. But for now, I guess i'll just be clutching that photograph to sleep, wishing it was all just a bad dream and that i will have my HAPPY ENDING. For now, its just me and this infinite sadness.
a Certain Sadness
Look out the window at that rainstorm
I've let the wind blow up a brainstorm
And now I'm wondering whether weather like this gets you too
It may go on like this for hours
Too late in fall for April showers
So I will court you
Got a thought or two I need to share with you
here goes...
Darling tell me now
have I done wrong somehow
that you won't look at me?
Needn't point it out
can't keep my wits about
when you won't look at me
Is there something I ought to know
you find it hard to say?
Well there's just a trace hiding on your face
& I've learnt it that way
Just another soul that really knows my soul
& you won't look at me
Does that take the prize
how much I love those eyes?
& they won't look at me
Now the rain has gone but something lingers on
a certain sadness here now that the sky is clear
& it's oh so clear
yes it's oh so clear to me now
& I can't help but fear that certain sadness here to stay...
This is sooooooooo depressing.
hay, i feel like bossa nova-ing my way to forever singlehood. Am i barking at the wrong tree?
I've let the wind blow up a brainstorm
And now I'm wondering whether weather like this gets you too
It may go on like this for hours
Too late in fall for April showers
So I will court you
Got a thought or two I need to share with you
here goes...
Darling tell me now
have I done wrong somehow
that you won't look at me?
Needn't point it out
can't keep my wits about
when you won't look at me
Is there something I ought to know
you find it hard to say?
Well there's just a trace hiding on your face
& I've learnt it that way
Just another soul that really knows my soul
& you won't look at me
Does that take the prize
how much I love those eyes?
& they won't look at me
Now the rain has gone but something lingers on
a certain sadness here now that the sky is clear
& it's oh so clear
yes it's oh so clear to me now
& I can't help but fear that certain sadness here to stay...
This is sooooooooo depressing.
hay, i feel like bossa nova-ing my way to forever singlehood. Am i barking at the wrong tree?
Sleep all day...
I survived my first late night- all morning orientation. Thank you to my ever reliable Starbucks Caramel Macchiato, i was strumming and tapping my fingers all night/ morning.
Of course, the morning after was a different story. I arrived home at around 3am and slept at 3:30. I woke up by 1:30 pm, had lunch, slept again by at 2, and woke up by 5:30. My dad invited me to go to the mall with them and I did (just to disprove that I am the world's laziest person). two hours later, I was ready to embrace my bed again.
Maybe I am the world's laziest person (which was contradicted by my brother by saying that one person slept the entire year). Thank you kuya, for taking away all the glory.
My life is boring. Sorry.
Of course, the morning after was a different story. I arrived home at around 3am and slept at 3:30. I woke up by 1:30 pm, had lunch, slept again by at 2, and woke up by 5:30. My dad invited me to go to the mall with them and I did (just to disprove that I am the world's laziest person). two hours later, I was ready to embrace my bed again.
Maybe I am the world's laziest person (which was contradicted by my brother by saying that one person slept the entire year). Thank you kuya, for taking away all the glory.
My life is boring. Sorry.
Friday, December 02, 2005
Overtime: tales of the Greedy Employee
Guess where I am making this post?...
Yup. Its 10:15 pm and i am still at the office. I am waiting for the clock to strike 11pm and then i shall head my way to my orientation that would last until 2 am in the morning.
Shempre, salamat sa pananakot ng mga kaibigan ko at ngayon ay isa na akong paranoia personified. nginig!
I was late kanina. ACtually, i cant blame anyone kasi it was my fault. I turned off my alarm clock so i got up at around 6 am na. The funny thing was, i get to bond with the FX driver..ahem, crosswind driver pala. we were the only ones left after everyone got off the car so ayun... he asked me a lot of question and feeling close na kami.
actually, he's not a driver naman talaga. He works in a bank in Makati and is just making the most out of his ride.. sayang nga naman ang gas kung mag isa lang siya.
all my bosses are gone for a business planning trip. I thought i could shirk all i want but nooooooo... super toxic pa rin.
Tapos, here i am, alone in the office after my officemates left me 5 minutes ago. Congrats to me.
sobrang gahaman na ito sa pera!
Yup. Its 10:15 pm and i am still at the office. I am waiting for the clock to strike 11pm and then i shall head my way to my orientation that would last until 2 am in the morning.
Shempre, salamat sa pananakot ng mga kaibigan ko at ngayon ay isa na akong paranoia personified. nginig!
I was late kanina. ACtually, i cant blame anyone kasi it was my fault. I turned off my alarm clock so i got up at around 6 am na. The funny thing was, i get to bond with the FX driver..ahem, crosswind driver pala. we were the only ones left after everyone got off the car so ayun... he asked me a lot of question and feeling close na kami.
actually, he's not a driver naman talaga. He works in a bank in Makati and is just making the most out of his ride.. sayang nga naman ang gas kung mag isa lang siya.
all my bosses are gone for a business planning trip. I thought i could shirk all i want but nooooooo... super toxic pa rin.
Tapos, here i am, alone in the office after my officemates left me 5 minutes ago. Congrats to me.
sobrang gahaman na ito sa pera!