DON'T PANIC

Surreal.

I guess you never realize how fast time flies until something major happens that makes you remember that you’re not a kid anymore. I’ve been working for more than 2 years but that isn’t enough to slap me back to reality that some things are changing, not even me having a relationship. I just don’t feel old, though I look old-er because of stress. I guess that’s because I still make a good Cherie Gil impression, I still love to laugh at silly things, I still watch Wowowee on weekends and drop corny jokes all the time. Admittedly, I am still not as refined as I imagined myself to be at 23. I am still galawgaw, kontrabida, addicted to the same things as before, naïve and child-like. No, that’s not bad. Not at all.

While I am stuck in a time-frozen capsule (including Perksquad), everyone else seems to be moving in sound-like speed. High school classmates getting pregnant and having children, acquaintances settling abroad, College crushes passing away due to a car accident, an orgmate being subpoena-ed due to frat-related scandal, and now, my bestfriend finally getting hitched. Wow, I feel like I’m a 12-old kid lost in the world of the grownups.

I should be thankful, of course. I bet most people my age would like to have a plain normal life like what I have. I can say that I can’t complain, though it doesn’t hurt to have more money than I have now. But that is achievable, I think. It’s just that its so…. Surreal.

I can’t speak for those people who have gone on to the next stage of life because I don’t know their reasons for being there. Maybe its God’s plans for them, maybe it’s by choice, maybe it’s an accident. Nevertheless, I wish them all luck.

I, on the other hand, am taking it one day at a time. Working hard, playing hard, having fun and learning life. It’s not bad to have plans, you know, to take your sweet time while planning the future. Although the events in between are fuzzy like I plan it to be, the general plan is to get promoted to senior management at 26, travel a lot, learn a new language before I get married at the age of 28, retire at the age of 30 and hopefully set up a business of my own but still be a hands-on mother of three… and I plan to wake up each day with the love of my life until the grey age of 75. Great, isn’t it?

So don’t panic if you’re 27 and you’ve never been in a relationship. Life is only as short as you want it to be.