For wedding and a Funeral

i am officially loveless.
due to some unexpected events, the sparks that i thought would turn into a bush fire died for no apparent reason. Maybe its because i didnt like him at all. two of my dearest friends gave me some explanations.

Susy (Geno's better half) said that it really happens. Sometimes, from over thinking a guy, you tend to find feelings that are really not there, thinking it would satisfy you. After psyche-ing yourself that you like him, you then realize that you can't take anymore of him. She aptly termed this state as "impatso".

Wonder GIrl, on the other hand, assumed that i like him because he likes me (or so she thinks). She thinks that i got the "love fever" from the hot/ cold treatment he is giving me.

i think both of them are right. everyone who's been reading my blog knows that i have been in a rut for the past 3 years. they must have sensed that I need to prove something to everyone, especially now that Thoushallnotbenamed and Beyonce are officially a couple. actually, as ive written in my previous post, i wasnt really affected by the recent developments in their lives. Although Carlo (not his true name) stroke a wrong nerve when he said that i should give dilbert (or any guy for that matter) a chance so that people would think that i have completely moved on, i feel that its an appalling reason to like someone.

on the brighter side of things, yesterday, Queer, Mamba and I went to the mall. We tried to look for an outfit for Anime's sister's wedding. Tubby and Anime will be hosting the event. I never realized that even with inflation and a fiscal crisis, a cute and formal outfit less than a grand still exists. oooh, im just so excited. I love weddings. i plan to become a wedding planner in the future. J-Lo drama ito. There's something magical about weddings. i dont know if its the smiling faces, the glamorous dresses or maybe lots of Photo ops that gets me. I maybe cynical and jaded, but i still dream of having my own wedding. i have actually picked my wedding song. nyahaha. im still waiting, though, for the willing victim (aka groom) to arrive.

anyway, i just remembered that in 4 day's time, we (i?) will be celebrating (not the least) our 2nd falling apart anniversary. Plus, we're a week away from Christmas. What a perfect time to be loveless. Drag me away from the cocktail bar, please.

p.s. FPJ died yesterday. believe it or not, i actually cried. i dont know if its because the song "i will be here" was playing in the background while i was reading the newpaper or because i genuinely felt sad. whatever the reason may be, i think that FPJ is truly da king, maybe not in the political arena but in the hearts of many Filipinos.