now, where did that come from? (hmm, come to think of it. most of my sesnsible thoughts sprang from randomness)
anyway, i think its high time for me to clear up the rumors (uy! artistahin) that you've been hearing from the grapevine. ahem, what i mean is, i will clear up some of the bangenge things i wrote in my blog.
First: the New Zealand Fantasy
my friend/ boss in Ecosoc, brown sugar, inquired:
"AM, nakarating ka na ng New Zealand?"
i know, i know... you must have assumed that i've been there considering the numerous photos i posted on the site. well, well. Here's the truth and nothing but the truth (so help me God?)
i was born and raised there. Yes, i am a true blue New Zealand...
Cow.
(nyerk, nyerk.. .Corny.. kasi naman, spirito ni GC, layuan mo ako)
duh? ako pa!?! eh the farthest i've been is Baguio. HUWAAAT? (paki nyo ba?)
New Zealand has been the object of my obsession since the contestants of Amazing Race number something went there. i've always been drawn to the idyllic life: fields of green, rolling mountains, lakes and men. (imagine the bodies they have from toiling the fields. yummy...)
Plus, the setting of one of my favorite movies LOTR is in New Zealand.. who can beat that?
okay.. back to reality. So there, its cleared na.. I haven't been in New Zealand, but in the near future, i will be.
second: Where's Dilbert?
what happened to him? haha.. ewan ko. i was actually surprised that many people are asking me, kamusta naman kayo? Kayo na ba? NOT LIKELY! first, his maneuvers are as slick as a sandpaper. everytime he tries to make a move, i'm not really sure if i was just hallucinating or it's the real thing. its like a split second, imperceptible kind of move. second: we kind of share the jake roxas-bernadette allyson passion during growing up days (ha! figure that out!) third, wwech.. mashado nang marami (two reasons are enough to dump a guy).. haha.. i really dont want to enumerate all of them... it's a blast to his ego.
Third: Stuck in a Ditch
hmmm, i guess most people are wondering why thoushallnotbenamed still appears in my blog. you're probably thinking, baka di pa ako nakaka move on, im still in love with him, i'm still waiting for him to come back etc etc.
in all honesty, i can say that i am completely healed from the heartache. Actually, matagal na. I realized that i don't love him in that way when i didn't feel a twinge of pain when he and sushi girl became an item. i guess the only reason i still write about him is to relive the good memories, bring some real emotions in my life. ( i haven't been living the exciting life, until now) wala lang, drama queen lang talaga ako.
Although i have to admit that the relationship (not exactly the person) deteriorated my faith in love, i can still say na its not a hopeless case. Someday, when i finally meet that person truly meant for me, my belief will be restored. i chanced upon a really nice and thought-provoking line in some blog. it read:
"sa mundong ito, may isang pag-ibig na sadyang hindi para sa atin... "
i guess he's talking about that once-in-a-lifetime heartbreak which causes one person to alter his/her opinions on life, love and hope.
Ang galing ano? i'm actually contemplating on this theory of the Duality of Love.The existence of a once-in-a-lifetime love and its counterpart, once-in-a-lifetime heartbreak. Hmmm, is that mutually exclusive? i'm not sure pero im thinking, there's only one great love which can NEVER spring into a one great heart ache. its probably that kind of love na unconditional, no-questions asked, washing-in-his-bath water* kind of love. You'll remember this person not for the pain he caused pero the good memories you've shared.
As for the once-in-a-lifetime heartbreak, i guess we all know what that means.. a love full of regret and questions. The kind that makes you say, "T@(!# nya, if he just loved me better..."
i still don't know where he falls under.. pero judging from my non-hate for him, ... wala..
moral of the story: there's a side to every story... lurking behind the headline (sandwhiched between the classified ads and obituary) lies a banner story waiting to be discovered. wala lang..
* i was reminded of this song by No doubt BATHWATER.. the expression "coz i love to wash in your own bath water" means accepting that person for everything he is.. faults and imperfections included. Ganda noh??? galing ng song na to
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