alterego

i stare at the rebel in front of me
awakening her senses, feeling her pain
you're different, i told her
she smiled back, and languidly spoke to me
you are my prayer.

she delved deeper, deeper, whirring my senses
i tried to hide, to cover my vulnerability
but her stolid eyes pierced my being
and left me half empty and craving for more
she is my saving grace.

with heavy breath, i try to follow her
as she runs faster i got lost
its coming down and zooming in
alas! i found her, high up in the stalwart
she is my worst enemy.

finally, she is arm's length
i can touch her, feel her flesh and break her bones
i throb in reluctant anticipation.
she is mine now. i can be her master, finally.
i woke and and opened my eyes to the brightness.
she is gone.
my alter ego.

11:45 PM 2/21/2004